Saints and Sinners.

Its been a frustrating and yet fruitful few days! I have bought a new caravan,i went and found someone to take the old one away,which really surprised me about myself,i just walked into the yard and told them what i wanted!,i was confident and forthright, i amazed myself! if i had had to think about doing it i would have been anxious and probably done it but would have stressed about it and gone over it over and over again afterwards! the difference may have been because i prayed before i went..I hadn't spoken to Brian or Helen for a while, Tony said he had spoken to Brian and had not known what to say either,i had prayed about it and the Lord brought it to my mind the time when i was in town with my Mum not long after my Brother died, and some old friends crossed the road so the did not have to talk to us,it upset my Mum, and i was upset for her, but i don't blame those people,because i feel the same now,but of course no one can say ANYTHING that will make it any better, but we can help in a little way just to let them know we are there and love them,.Brian says he gets so angry,i just said that he was bound to.Then we had a joke when we were on the phone, because he had asked Helen to leave the washing up to him,and she went ahead and did it! and i said to Brian, the Bible says a wife should obey her husband, he told her and she pretended to smack her own bottom!...When we went to the dirt bike show in Telford i had to leave early,but Di said the next day that the day before Brian was very quiet to begin with but when the day went on he became his old self! He was striding out there to talk to people and they could see the love of the Lord shining out of him! he wasn't preaching at them, just asking them if they had enjoyed their day, both he and Helen are amazing evangelists, she brought a Lady to the lord last year called Carol.It is strange that it is her voice that has been affected...she has no voice now...just communicates in sign language and writes things down...It sounds silly bit the last few times i have seen her she seems to glow,the same as women do sometimes when they are pregnant...i don't know why,i feel like i am seeing her clearer now, the inner her, showing the Pure Love of God,shining out of her,looking back i know its always been there,i can just see it better now,i don't want to make her seem like a Saint,but Helen has never said anything bad about anyone else,she really is a really good lovely person,she is always so loving, genuinely concerned about others...again Gods love shines out of her.. i cant describe it any better.My Mum used to talk about My Brother Mike like he was a saint after he died,My Sister talks about Mum that way! neither of them were, they were ordinary flawed people, who would never have said they themselves were good people! Of course the true meaning of the word 'Saint' just means a believer in Christ, it was the Catholic church who almost worship certain people who they deem as 'almost perfect' human beings, and we all know there was only ever One Perfect human Being! Jesus.the last time saw Brenda alive i hid from her!!...not because she was very ill with Cancer, but because she used to judge me and tell me exactly what i was doing wrong, in her eyes,anyway!!, that Church had a habit of 'deciding where you were going wrong', with no evidence of it, but they thought it was divine revelation,the only problem was that it was wrong!!, and TRUE Divine revelation could not be wrong!! God bless them though because God used them to bring me back to him!!