Spike,inhalers,and power cuts!

I have got a new puppy, a Yorkshire terrier,6 months old, Ben wants to call him Spike, like the dog from the Tom and Jerry cartoons, a bulldog!!, i am not quite sure its suitable for a Yorkie though, but i have run out of ideas for names as this is my 8th dog, the best name i thought of is Toto! went down hill from there! Mike and i fell out for about a week, when he objected to me telling him to take his med's, he wasn't even though the Psychiatrist told him too, he missed out on a wonderful meeting, where a Chairman of the Welsh C.M.A did his testimony,it was really inspiring!i have found out they go to church in the same welsh town where my caravan is,his wife is really nice, i would love to go and visit them. I went to the caravan last week and managed two days, i have not been going so much this year because of all the work that's been going on in the house,and last time i stayed there i forgot my inhaler, and instead of waiting and going to the doctor there, i did a stupid thing and drove back the 78 miles, i could hardly walk...very irresponsible!! It scared me a lot that i am so near to something bad happening just by forgetting something so simple,i really learnt a lesson from that, as we always do through bad things, i have to be more careful with my health, i have been in intensive care many times,in my twenties,it could so easliy happen again. It was really wonderful to be there, at the caravan,it was so peaceful somehow,we took the new car, with the new cage, and the dogs seemed happier in that,Ben was happy to go, he likes the secondhand d.v.d shop there,it was so nice, and although i am not likely to go back this year as the weather has turned cold,i will be looking forward to go there next year, i have been dreading to go, for so many months,every time i planned to go, some workman rang to say they could only come on that day, i was ill sometimes, and had biker church,once i had everything ready to go, and started to walk up the road to get the car, and was wheezy,(asthma)! so had to turn back, Ben was delighted!!. So today there are workmen outside installing my Gas supply,which i assumed would take maybe a day, its been three days! on monday they hit the main electric supply, so downed tools,at 8.p.m the electric company came out and turned off the supply for the whole street!!, only for half an hour,so i don't know when it will be finished... The good news is that Mike rang me yesterday and is his old self!! so everything is good, for me at the moment!

testimony,part 2

I was an molested, abused,unwanted child, later i became a battered wife,was raped by my husbands best friend,my Son is now mentally disabled because he saw his father try to strangle me,( this is not some wacky theory of my own, a child Pyshcologist said this). I spent my life trying to get past these Acts someone else chose to do to me,i was in Unforgiveness which was eating away at me,to my mind "forgiveness meant letting them get away with it",but they did get away with it, and despite me doing my best to bring them to justice nothing came of it!...but the Anger was still there, i was depressed, bringing up five children on my own, following every wacky theory the World came up with on child rearing!!.. My life was spiralling downward,i was not promiscuos,but like a lot of people i thought if i just found the right Husband i would be happy,i found three husbands,(not at the same time,)but no Human being could answer the questions i had, like "is this all there is",i had resigned myself to never being happy and just did the best i could to bring up my children, alone... truly alone, no husband, and NO help from anyone else, my Mum and my two youngest Grandparents, bought clothes, but the day to day care,and problems were up to me to solve alone, it was hard, i wouldn't talk to another adult for weeks,but My sons and Daughters have really turned out to be decent human beings, and i am proud of all of them,but i cant claim any credit, this happened despite me! I know it was the Lord!Praise Him. sometimes because i had to live on benefits, we ,couldn't always pay the bills, i had to make sure there was enough food,so the bills came second.I know what its like to hide from creditors, not answer to door or dread answering the phone. One day i was walking up the local main street,and i heard someone preaching and playing guitars,i stopped to listen,i went to their church, and slowly things that were said, a line from a song, struck a chord with me, i could see these people were different, full of genuine love and care,I WANTED WHAT THEY HAD!! So, i prayed one day, "God if you are real,prove it",....nothing happened, no blinding light! nothing outward, or inward for a while!!but i felt hungry for His word,i felt the need to know more about Him,looking back i know that the change had started in me, firstly was PEACE,i had never felt before,i had felt anxious all my life, especially with the responsibility of doing the right thing by my children.It was gone!! I had an assurance that my life, and my children's lives were under control, Under GOD'S CONTROL, slowly i realised i would never be alone again,'Jesus says He will NEVER LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US' i had been forsaken all my life, by humans, NEVER BY GOD! part three coming soon...

Blood of the Lamb, and the word of our Testimony.

So its done, i did my testimony, and when i have more time i will put it here,it seeme d to go really well, most of the poeple there came up to me and said they were inspired, and one guy who has been at nerly every meeting i have been to since April who has never said heelo did wich was great i was starting to worry why not!

forbodeings of doom realised......

It seems almost surreal to read the post about me being "worried about Mike",i am sorry to say my fears were justified,He's had a breakdown there,in India,and had to be brought back,everyone sees the "scam artist" for what she is, and there is no money left in the charity, so a man Called Russ had to pay for his and Mikes ticket back, and the £450, taxi fair from London Gatwick airport.Mikes friend Nicky is trying to get him admitted to hospital,so thank God he is home safely, and the Russ was there to care for him,He is a registered Mental health nurse, and was able to give Mike some medicine to calm him down on the flights back, even so Mike attacked him three times....