Monday 25 May 2015

Disapointment in the Duggars

Very disappointed to read yesterday on the excellent blog "everyday victim blaming" about the news of the Christian family, the Duggars, and the admission, and apologies of the eldest son for abusing five girls when he was 15,the blog said that the family had known for a year,and instead of protecting the victims had protected the Criminal, leaving him with time to Offend again...The Victims have a right to anonymity,but as the only Adults Jim and Michelle are directly responsible for those extra crimes, what makes it even more heartbreaking is that this is a small community and the victims would have been very well known to the Parents,or even closer... I have been in a similar situation, forgiveness was expected and close association with the criminal, who was protected from any consequences.I was an adult woman, and with the Lords help, He has brought me through, to forgiveness.BUT I HAVE NO DESIRE to be anywhere near Howard, the perpetrator,which is a natural reaction, and instinct, but these young girls will have to have been in daily contact with the criminal, and I know guilt and shame was put on me for refusing any contact, those girls have lived in a new kind of Hell, please Lord help them.

Sunday 24 May 2015

Mundane stuff

Mark was let out of hospital and went back in again almost straight away, poor guy. I am without my laptop again, as Alec has it back to install all the things I need to do the secretarial work at last, Ben is not sleeping again, but instead of staying downstairs with him until he seems to be tired I am going to bed at a regular time,usually 12- 12.30,which does make it a lot more tolerable for me!

Sunday 17 May 2015

In Plaster..

I fell down in the garden yesterday so now my right arm is in plaster, so annoying, I can still type quite fast though even with my left handed!i have to have the plaster on for four weeks, so no driving!

Thursday 14 May 2015

Cravans,locks, and Chairs

Ben had a little tantrum on Sunday, cant remember what about, but he broke the key off in the back door so instead of going to the caravan as i was intending to do today, i have to go out and buy another lock and as i dont have a spare key for the other door, (well i do, but Andy my son in Law has it) and i dont really want to ask him for it back, i cant go away to the caravan until it is fixed...it is windy though and its no joke on a welsh mountainside,looking directly down to the ocean when there are gales force winds like last week!!..,the wind just blows in hard from the sea and the caravan literally is a tin box, it gets very noisy! I am still waiting to take up my duties as secretary for the Local Christian motorcyclist Asociation,the chairman a woman, husbands has been wanting to put a new programme on it that is supposed to help me do office work, but hasnt had time to do it so she is still doing the secretarial work as well as being the Chair, and doing the Biker Church as well... The victim support people rang me today,which was nice of them,as i had been to the Police about my son and his girlfriend stealing from me,He is not speaking to me now, i guess cos i went to the Police!!! Its like Howard telling everyone he forgives ME, totally backwards!

Saturday 9 May 2015

Blessing those who curse and despitefully use us! most of the time

I really want to bless those people i have had to forgive over the long passage of my life,yesterday three of the latest were all in the same place at one time!!(my daughter Rosanna, (Zannie's) house,with Howard and Nathan)!!..i am so annoyed at myself that I let a feeling of annoyance get through and didn't immediately get down to praying for Blessings for them!!, i could even have been outside the place and prayed in in the Spirit, Darn it!!,i will be asking the Lord to give me another opportunity! Praise Him! for He is good all the time!!

Thursday 7 May 2015

BALLS

Its a sunny day, Ben was up at 6.30am,and i am going to go out today! it doesnt seem to take much to help me to cheer up!!We took the dogs out yesterday to Tashies farm, and the dogs had a good run! He wasnt up til 2.30pm but i am not allowing him to stay up really late any more, i do have to endure some swearing and being accused of "tricking" him!! when in fact i am quite upfront about what is happening!!He misunderstands the word...Nipper my 12 year old Yorshire Terrier is getting in fights with Spike, the two year old, both still have their testicles, so people would say its my fault for not having them castrated, but to be honest i had Toto and Biggles "done" and it makes no difference to how much they fight, and at the present moment i have three uncastrated males, two yorkies,and one husky,the female, Gizmo is "Done",but that is only because i dont want any more puppies,and when she had the Opration she almost died, i am a responsible owner and they never come into contact with females who havent been done, i think it is morally wrong, and cruel to put Dogs through non-Life saving operations,and it makes huskies shed FAR more!AND OF COURSE its steady income for the Vetinary surgeons! no wonder they promote it so much!!

Monday 4 May 2015

VICTIM?...NOT!.. VICTORIUS!! (in Him)

Yes the enemy of our souls is trying to pull me down.. to get me to give up on the Lord,but with His strength He will bring me through this trial as He has done with all the other things, that have been thrown at me through my life, i reject the thought that Satan has planted that i have "Victim" tattooed on my forehead!!! I don't,The Lord is what matters, and telling others about Him and His goodness and forgiveness to us all!! Yes two of my children have betrayed, one by stealing,and the other by choosing my Violent ex-husband Howard,over me, (NOT her Dad,, whatever he says), yes i spent a few days in a "pity party", but the Enemy will not have the Victory in my family!!He is already a defeated foe, on the Cross, and his days are numbered! Hallelujah!!

Saturday 2 May 2015

Sick and tired

I am sick and tired of being sick and tired! Yes my life has been rough, it's as if the enemy has been throwing everything he can at me to drive me away from the Lord, with Gods help that won't happen as I am nothing without the Lord in my life, God is good all the time and it's His will in my life that matters, we had a great meeting last weekend and 60 bibles were given out to bikers, with prayers going out with everyone, Praise the Lord, it's exciting times, it is a real privilege to do Gods work, and to be in His Will. I went all the way to the event on the back of my trike, I was freezing when I got there and for a long time after the journey home,I sat in a sleeping bag for two hours before I warmed up! Mostly my legs, and it was only a twenty mile journey!!