A long hard week, cue song"and i would walk 500 miles" or drive!

It has been a long hard week,I have driven over 500 miles,and I have been to the Police about the Money that was stolen from my bank.I went to the National Annual General Meeting of the Christian Motorcyclist Association, that was a 170 mile journey in one day, I really didn't want to go, but felt strongly that I was supposed to go,and that God wanted me too...Brian also felt he should go,and spoke up really well several times in the meeting.I also managed to get to the caravan this week too,I never actually got to the beach, but I am quite happy I went even just for the one night...of course I left the key in the car and managed to drain the battery so had to get the R.A.C out to jump start it for me!!..
Ben was as unpleasant as always,shouts and screams, and hates going...and it took him a long time to snap out of it, until the evening which is unusual..Tash was going to have him for the day when I went to the A.g.m,but I took him with me,and he was being unpleasant,openly in front of others to me which is a new thing,Tash has said to me this week that she is a bit worried he will get aggressive with her if she spends too long with her, in fact he locked her and Max in the kitchen just a few months ago,when I was out,in a temper, so of course he can't be left with her anymore and the list is really short now of people I can leave him with, just Darren!,

Let down by those I trusted...

It has been a frustrating few hours, I am having to call in some loans from people who I thought I could trust to pay me back with out me having to chase them up, I am feeling like a Real MUG, I understand about being owed money by my children that's what parents do to help out their kids, and non of them can rely on their Dads to help them,but it's not my kids I am annoyed about, I have moved my money into some where that pays great interest, and is much harder to get hold of, at least a month to get into! Once bitten twice shy! Someone who one of my children trusted took a lot of money from my account without asking,it's taken a few weeks but it's been moved,(the rest of it) and will make it harder for me to help my kids in an emergency, but has to be done! Leave me with a really bad feeling, a nasty sort of after taste,worst thing though is the person took the money out made me promise not to tell him,( my son), because it was "my son who had got them into debt" ...and I really hate that..and of course it could be because it was all a lie...will never know, and I will tell him if it's not paid back in the instalments they agreed...

Budgie andfootsteps

Last night I heard footsteps in my house across the landing I have heard this before, (Ben was in bed and there was no one else in the house) and when there a hole in the Victorian panel door i have noticed a movement outside the door, the same night as Ben had a dream that the terminator had come into his room....I immediately prayed and asked the Lord to take away whatever demon was causing it, I have heard footsteps for years, and it took me praying every night for all the supernatural things to stop in my house, it's the Lords house really of course, not mine at all... so i am now typing this on my mobile phone with a tiny keyboard! i cant actually see what i am doing...i started it on my ipad but it dies and now i have to use my last resort my phone,i had a lovely email from my dear friend Terry,she is more than a friend she is my sister in Jesus,she has the wonderful website "spiritual side of domestic violence" she is now going to start a bible study,i have never met her but she has always been there for me,when i have been upset at Howard's antics and is very sensitive to the enemies tactics,a wonderful Sister,.I really Praise God for her.
There is a popular advert on t.v. At the moment here with a budgie and a cat, who sing a love song to each other, and the owner looks on with amazement, the song is you "are all I need" I used to just see it as just a funny thing but recently it has been unsettling me,It reminds me of that old story of the animal that needs a ride to cross the river,and a fox offers the animal a lift, it could be a chicken!!,the fox promises not to eat the chicken but half way across starts to,the chicken asks why,the fox says I can't help it, it's my nature,it just reminds me so much of Abusers,they will Say anything to get back their control and power,but Nature will out!