Oh dear i cant stop laughing Jon's been bitten by Joe's dog, i know i am a terrible Christian and shouldn't enjoy this so much!! but i texted Joe and Daisy and said i would have loved to be a fly on the wall when it happened!! i even said that 'he would have to take anti-biotics, in case he caught something ....from Jon!!' well i thought it was funny!!
This has cheered me up so much!!
Sunday 27 November 2016
'Feminazis' and nice sympathetic woman...
I have been reading some opinions by Feminists,most of them say that women are 'conditioned' to be subservient to men, which is all very well, but we know that most women are brought up by other women so where does that leave us! they believe that women are born like that but have it instilled into them in some way, but then believe that its men's nature to be 'dominant'..but i don't believe that,i know that God has made me into a 'nice sympathetic women'(Mikes words not mine!)
God has given us women that nature, how could we be mothers and grandmothers without it, the Human race would not survive, because women would not want to rear children!
I am the Prayer secretary for the local branch of the Christian Motorcyclist association,today i forwarded the prayer request from Colin the Pastor, who does the Biker church in Warrington,he was asking for Prayer for Helen and Brian,i forwarded it all to everyone i could think of,with tears pouring down my face,and then was going to go on Facebook to ask the C.M.A in South Africa, Australia,but i know that God knows my desire for Helen to be healed, here on earth,i don't cling to His Promise to heal her, i let emotion get the better of me!i suppose its o.k to cry about what they are going through,but i'm not crying about that!, i am crying because i don't want her to die, which is against what i believe that God has said!!
So i am full of contradictions!...hypocrisy really!!i still doubt God!! I have never been in this situation before,with a friend who is so ill, and i don't know how to handle it, i want to be there for them both,which i cant be because of my responsibilities,i am good friends with them both, i thought close friends, but not close enough to be going through this with them, but Di, the chairwoman of the Branch has said that they have a lot of support,although Brian did say he had no-one to talk to..but maybe he meant in a womanly sense of a female to share with, but Helen can still communicate with her I-Pad, but maybe he feels he has to be strong for her...
I feel i am letting everyone down..and i don't know what to do about it...
God has given us women that nature, how could we be mothers and grandmothers without it, the Human race would not survive, because women would not want to rear children!
I am the Prayer secretary for the local branch of the Christian Motorcyclist association,today i forwarded the prayer request from Colin the Pastor, who does the Biker church in Warrington,he was asking for Prayer for Helen and Brian,i forwarded it all to everyone i could think of,with tears pouring down my face,and then was going to go on Facebook to ask the C.M.A in South Africa, Australia,but i know that God knows my desire for Helen to be healed, here on earth,i don't cling to His Promise to heal her, i let emotion get the better of me!i suppose its o.k to cry about what they are going through,but i'm not crying about that!, i am crying because i don't want her to die, which is against what i believe that God has said!!
So i am full of contradictions!...hypocrisy really!!i still doubt God!! I have never been in this situation before,with a friend who is so ill, and i don't know how to handle it, i want to be there for them both,which i cant be because of my responsibilities,i am good friends with them both, i thought close friends, but not close enough to be going through this with them, but Di, the chairwoman of the Branch has said that they have a lot of support,although Brian did say he had no-one to talk to..but maybe he meant in a womanly sense of a female to share with, but Helen can still communicate with her I-Pad, but maybe he feels he has to be strong for her...
I feel i am letting everyone down..and i don't know what to do about it...
Thursday 24 November 2016
Helen's Testimony
I haven't posted for nine days! and to be honest i don't really have much to say! i have been going through a bad period, i have been upset about Helen, so i have shut myself away for a while, i didn't sleep much on Saturday night so i missed Helen's testimony via her Ipad which speaks for her! a bit annoying....but i wasn't really fit enough to drive! so i am beck to my usual self now, with energy and the inclination to sort out the house!
I have not heard from Mike for two weeks now, but i don't really want to talk about him today, that's all over!(except that i think i may have to sell the Trike, i don't know why i am keeping it! i have had it two and half years now, never learnt to ride it!
So that's been my life for the last few weeks, except i have found out that Ben is really really good at sports! a total shock, he beat the coach at Hurling the first game he tried, in fact anything with Hand-eye co-ordination! a shock!
Well my plans to go out today have been scuppered! Ben didn't get up until 12.30pm and being the sort of early morning person i am i cant be bothered to go out later, and i have tooth ache, and the medicine i take means i cant drive,but this setback has not brought me down! I was going to go to an anti stalking event in London today, but i couldn't afford the train fare..so not going..i wasn't sure i was supposed to go, if God wanted me to go!
I have not heard from Mike for two weeks now, but i don't really want to talk about him today, that's all over!(except that i think i may have to sell the Trike, i don't know why i am keeping it! i have had it two and half years now, never learnt to ride it!
So that's been my life for the last few weeks, except i have found out that Ben is really really good at sports! a total shock, he beat the coach at Hurling the first game he tried, in fact anything with Hand-eye co-ordination! a shock!
Well my plans to go out today have been scuppered! Ben didn't get up until 12.30pm and being the sort of early morning person i am i cant be bothered to go out later, and i have tooth ache, and the medicine i take means i cant drive,but this setback has not brought me down! I was going to go to an anti stalking event in London today, but i couldn't afford the train fare..so not going..i wasn't sure i was supposed to go, if God wanted me to go!
Tuesday 15 November 2016
Still waiting for healing for Helen
Helen choked on Friday night and just as Brian was dialing the paramedics it cleared.....poor Brian so much for him to cope with, and poor Helen,who is still in there, all the info on motor neuron disease say that the Brain is not affected...it seems so cruel...and like Forrest Gump that's all i want to say about that...
Helen is a wonderful kind loving person, the Holy Spirit just shines right out of her,, i love her so much,she is the ideal Christian woman, someone so much to look up too,i have never heard her say a nasty thing about anyone... Its so awful to see her going through this..i still cry every day, i am typing this now with tears running down my cheeks...Phil their son said on Facebook that he longs to hear her say 'cup of tea love?'just an ordinary thing she has probably said thousands of times to him,he misses her voice.
I have put my favourite video on face book, its just a few seconds long, Helen dancing at a show, it was run by Christain churches who all got together to show the church off to the local community,she is dancing to 'just want to praise you' by Mary Mary,cant hear her voice but she seems so full of life, and so happy.
I haven't given up hope that She will be healed, i believe God has given me that promise.. I am too upset to write anymore
Helen is a wonderful kind loving person, the Holy Spirit just shines right out of her,, i love her so much,she is the ideal Christian woman, someone so much to look up too,i have never heard her say a nasty thing about anyone... Its so awful to see her going through this..i still cry every day, i am typing this now with tears running down my cheeks...Phil their son said on Facebook that he longs to hear her say 'cup of tea love?'just an ordinary thing she has probably said thousands of times to him,he misses her voice.
I have put my favourite video on face book, its just a few seconds long, Helen dancing at a show, it was run by Christain churches who all got together to show the church off to the local community,she is dancing to 'just want to praise you' by Mary Mary,cant hear her voice but she seems so full of life, and so happy.
I haven't given up hope that She will be healed, i believe God has given me that promise.. I am too upset to write anymore
Sunday 6 November 2016
scoring points
Its nice to be home after that very short break! There is definitely something refreshing about sea air, it invigorates!! i have been feeling a lot better generally since then and am starting to take an interest in the house and thinking about what to do to make it better, to look better anyway. Helen is getting more tired and not really able to join in the c.m.a.Its so sad and i have to rebuke myself when i get sad, because i know she is going to be healed. God is good all the time!..
Ben has started back on his medicine which the doctor thought he should take after the overdose..Mike hasn't rung since saturday, which is good.I am going through a very lean period and have had to borrow money from Darren, i couldn't really afford to go to the caravan, but there were only a few days left until the site closed for the winter.
Mike did ring later today,(friday), just to say the cheque i gave him bounced,so i started to say,"oh i am sorry about that, i will.." had only got those few words out when he interupts with"DONT WORRY about it" very loudly and patronisingly, implying that i was panicking over it...so i interupt him back, loudly,"i wasn't worried about it, i will bring the cash round on monday"
It is like he is trying to score points off me every time he rings me,to loudly dominate every conversation,to tell me what to do! and if i don't comply he brings in things i have shared with him, personal stuff to criticize me about..its as if every conversation i have with him is planned to wind me up and upset me!! really odd! it doesn't work though but why is he doing it?!! very strange!!..
Ben has started back on his medicine which the doctor thought he should take after the overdose..Mike hasn't rung since saturday, which is good.I am going through a very lean period and have had to borrow money from Darren, i couldn't really afford to go to the caravan, but there were only a few days left until the site closed for the winter.
Mike did ring later today,(friday), just to say the cheque i gave him bounced,so i started to say,"oh i am sorry about that, i will.." had only got those few words out when he interupts with"DONT WORRY about it" very loudly and patronisingly, implying that i was panicking over it...so i interupt him back, loudly,"i wasn't worried about it, i will bring the cash round on monday"
It is like he is trying to score points off me every time he rings me,to loudly dominate every conversation,to tell me what to do! and if i don't comply he brings in things i have shared with him, personal stuff to criticize me about..its as if every conversation i have with him is planned to wind me up and upset me!! really odd! it doesn't work though but why is he doing it?!! very strange!!..
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