Lynns Biker Cafe at Christmas Eve.

I was surprised to read that Winter does not officially start until the winter solstice,and in fact all the seasons start on the solstices!...Not a very interesting fact,but i am a sucker for useless info, i would be quite good at a general knowledge quiz!!. We went to the Local Biker Cafe on christmas Eve, and sang some carols, a lot of people came other areas, staffordshire and north Chesire, and the North Chesire guys have been riding out to the Cafe every christmas Eve for years and our branch didnt know, last year both Helen and i felt to sing carols so this year she brought some Proper carol sheets, last year we could not remember the words of Many..

Annie's song..in the bleak mid winter Christmas 2014

It's Christmas day, 2014, 11.15pm and I am watching "top of the pops" from 1978,and I just realized that this was broadcast on the day that my brother died, aged 17 on Christmas day...bit of a shock and then I felt really guilty because I had been enjoying it,and haven't actually been thinking about him all day, I think I had made a joke about it being the worst Christmas since 1978...yesterday when I was talking to Mike about how much I don't like Christmas,he had been feeling down, and finally told me yesterday it was because of Christmas....I don't really think about the day much, but did do a piece for the carewrite blog a few years ago,with it being my Mums birthday on the 23rd, and that was the day he went into hospital,I stood at the gate while he went in the ambulance, alone I don't know where everyone else were, maybe my Mum was in the ambulance with him,my Dad had left,and was living in Walsall, my mum later told me he had been conceived on her birthday...i think I had to stay home and look after Nicky, who was 12,Mike had opened his present from my Dad, an antique chess set, and had a coughing fit.. , he wasn't able to get out of bed at that point, and hadn't for a few days, he was playing his guitar, a lot then,when he had the energy to do it...He had an appointment at the Brompton heart hospital in London.Years later my cousin Darren wrote a poem called "my cousin was dying" which was published in His anthology, and how he had felt resentful of the attention he got.. "top of the pops" has just ended with John Denvers "Annie's song" which was played at Mikes funeral, and yesterday I sang the carol "in the bleak midwinter" which was at his funeral as well....

Ashes to Ashes, and Bombastic bullies,part 3..

Oh dear, i shouldn't have done it but i read my sisters blog, its left me feeling very annoyed but its not just that, i was on the phone to my Dad and mentioned to him how it had made me laugh to the point i was gasping for air, not nice of me, not nice at all..., certainly not a christian thing to do....she was praising my mum,making her into a saint, and yet is holding that same "saints" ashes hostage until i toe HER line,and do what she wants,and it was on the anniversary of the day my mum died...unspeakable person.How much can she actually love my Mum when she wont allow her ashes to be buried in my brothers grave, which is what she really wanted, Even my Dad, (who they always wanted to make out was like Satan himself) was willing to allow it as he owns the Grave site....She wants me to speak to her,be friends again,which seems like a small thing to normal people,"why cant you do it for your Mums sake" is the question i imagine i would be asked,which seems reasonable!! The only thing is i do forgive her for her cruel behaviour to me and my children over the years, but it does not mean i will have anything to do with her,and her last bit of power, (she thinks) over me are the Ashes of our Mother, she is trying as usual to control me,because i am sorry to say,she is an unpleasant controlling person who tries to make me bend to her will!!, which i have done far too much over the years,So its not happening anymore!!..May God bless her and keep her, and one day bring him to her!..Which He can!!... She has decided she has Aspergers!!.. which is REALLY offensive to those people who actually have it, and even got a Doctor to back her up,(a private doctor who charges a lot of money) the doctor didn't dare disagree!! and i know this because i have been to a Doctor with her and the doctor told me later that he felt she was pushing for her agenda!! clever Man!(Of course one of the main symptoms of Asperger's is a failure or difficulty to communicate, and she definitely has no problem with that!! even to the point of verbally savaging anyone who disagrees with her on Twitter, and getting her sycophantic followers to viciously attack anyone who disagree with her too..!!) AND i remember the poor solicitors face (when i had asked her to intervene with Nicky,and get my Mums ashes buried), she looked like she had been hit by a Hurricane, poor woman!! she had been screamed at down the phone that it wasn't ME that wanted to bury the ashes but in fact she believed it was My Dad that was some "Evil puppeteer", her words! Though of course why would a Man who had been divorced from my Mum for 30 years and had not contact with, care anything about her ashes? Logic would say he wouldn't UNLESS HE of course was not the man she has always believed him to be!!So sad!!

Max the Camel, and Bikers church

Max had his christmas play yesterday, he was a camel!..we went to bikers church on sunday,which was wonderful as always, and we are all praying about the Bikers church we are having at a bikers Cafe 15 mils away in April! it has been an eventfull few weeks,( i am not going to give the enemy any credit so i am not going to talk about it yet!) Or any fore warning either!I have got the lovely patches from Terry and i stuck them on but they didnt stay on very well so i am going to have to sew them on,i dont have a leather attachment on my hand crank sewing machine so its going to have to be by hand! ouch!