Days like these,...are GP's (doctors) a myth?... and waiting for the Girl, no 6

I have been getting confused between two songs which have 'days like these' in the titles! The van Morrison one is called" Days like these", which is an upbeat song, i will have to check out the other one too!...it could be they are both upbeat! Its been an unsettling time since i last posted,i was getting stressed,and Praise Him! i have been very emotional recently, but because i lost 3 people who i cared about in 6 months i suppose thats understandable,(i did care about Howard once too).. i cant even think about Darren without welling up with tears....still after 10 months...maybe i should go to the dr?.,if i could actually see a dr which is very rare now,but i trust God to help me through this...i am sorry to say that i blame God for taking him sometimes which is wrong...Joe said he felt the Lord took him because of the bad times coming onto the Earth, i dont know if thats true. I actively avoid the doom sayers now, i can really do without the stress! someone sent me a photo of 'Death Camps'....really dont need that stress! i need to be positive...maybe because i may have had more than the average share of negativity with Abusive men? I hope the worlds is getting better but to be honest i have been involved with the Christians who have been talking about the End times for at least twenty years, many predictions have been made, and not happened, yet anyway...I can actively remember asking God that it wouldnt happen when my kids are small! So i have had my fill, and a few others too! Local Doctors seem to be an imaginary beast now! a lurking presence way off in the background,a godlike figure who only materialise behind closed doors!!....i am glad i dont need to see one for a while, or Ben...a person who rang up last week in place of the appointment i had to speak to Bens Dr, actually apolgised at the end of the call that i hadnt been able to speak to the actual doctor,i was relieved not to speak to him,as its pointless becuse Ben is not going to change his mind about Blood tests, or any Injections, because he is terrified of needles! Last time we saw a doctor apparentely Ben consented to have a blood test...(according to the sheet he recieved afterwards,recording the outcome of his visit to the dr)an annual check up,saying he had agreed, i was sitting right next to him and didnt hear that myself!...as a Great Lady once said recently' recollections may Vary! My health has been a lot better, i can walk further, and feel stronger, i dont really know why, i feel as if a burden has lifted...in a way the only burden lifting could have been Howard dying, and not feeling i have to lock myself in and be scared going out anywhere?..i felt like he would kill me one day.....and i have actually let go of whatever unforgiveness i had towards Jon, i did it years ago,but we are actually friendly now!! a Miracle of God in itself!!,i thought i had forgiven, but the unneccesary Violence used to anger me a lot... thank you Lord!! no one deserves to be forgiven, but as the Christian song goes,'everyone needs compassion' My sixth Grandchild is due tommorow, a girl,my fifth Grandaugter! just like last time God has brought Tash through by prayer, by me of course!.but mainly by other people, my friend Ruth from school,Tashy has had a difficult time, with the Baby being small for dates, she was due to be induced last friday, but she grew so she hopefully will be able to go into Labour naturally! Exciting times!