Today i am grateful for my God who protects us, always, even when we do the wrong thing, or Sin....
Today i know without a doubt that the 'Battle truly belongs to the Lord', we are soldiers,the minute we become Born again we enter the Battle,the enemy knows we have changed sides, and we become Soldiers in a Strange Land, what was once so familiar to us, we see now with new eyes,it is now the enemy's land, Jesus called Him the Prince of this world.
How can we sing the Lords song in a Strange Land?...the Prince may be out to get us, but King is our Father,He always Has the victory.
When i first Knew the Lord i used to see a picture of a square squad of Soldiers waiting, just standing waiting?.., as i went on with Him i was given a Spiritual Sword,and saw myself as one of the Soldiers!!
It Puzzled me why they were just standing, waiting and not in the Battle?.. until i saw in Ephesians 6 where it talks about putting our Armour on,and then it says 'and having done all, stand'.
I have read in other places,i cant remember where that once we are Born again, and have our Armour on, we are fighting Battles in our Spirit,which we don't know about in our Physical world,the Lord is using us to fight!!! and that is why we wake up sometimes and are really tired......I think it was in one of Rebbecca Browns books.
Sunday 30 September 2012
Wednesday 26 September 2012
I will fear no evil,for thou art with me.....all the days of my life
Today i am very grateful to God because it is exactly 31 years since i became a mother! a long time....and yet it really seems to have flown by too!.. The largest part of my life! and its not ended yet, as i am still looking after Ben,they all are doing different things,buying motor home,learning to drive,getting their children to school, starting work after long gap,running businesses,running their own houses,building extensions,the things we all do in life.
I thank God for every one of them, every one different, i am so proud of every one.I know we could not have made it without the Lord, He deserves all the glory. Praise Him.
I have had some interesting Biblical lessons,in 1 john it says' whatsoever is born of God overcometh the World' , and 'He that is begotten of God keepeth Himself, and the Wicked one touches him NOT'
So i have the Victory, (through Christ). He is Good,and His mercy endureth for Ever! Hallelujah!
The Enemy has been trying hard to discourage me,it seems almost every time i leave the House, even just to take the dogs for a short walk he has his servants there to discourage,and try to cause me to despair,just as He tried to do with the Ex, (when i went out of the house almost every time i saw the Ex).
So i do have the confidence to say,' this is the Victory that overcometh the World' I HAVE the Victory that OVERCOMETH,!!!... and Being The Prince of this World, the enemy is overcome too! Maybe its overstating to say its the valley of the shadow of Death!!!...,but it sometimes feels like that! We should not depend on feelings. as they can lie to us too !!!..Praise The Lord.
I thank God for every one of them, every one different, i am so proud of every one.I know we could not have made it without the Lord, He deserves all the glory. Praise Him.
I have had some interesting Biblical lessons,in 1 john it says' whatsoever is born of God overcometh the World' , and 'He that is begotten of God keepeth Himself, and the Wicked one touches him NOT'
So i have the Victory, (through Christ). He is Good,and His mercy endureth for Ever! Hallelujah!
The Enemy has been trying hard to discourage me,it seems almost every time i leave the House, even just to take the dogs for a short walk he has his servants there to discourage,and try to cause me to despair,just as He tried to do with the Ex, (when i went out of the house almost every time i saw the Ex).
So i do have the confidence to say,' this is the Victory that overcometh the World' I HAVE the Victory that OVERCOMETH,!!!... and Being The Prince of this World, the enemy is overcome too! Maybe its overstating to say its the valley of the shadow of Death!!!...,but it sometimes feels like that! We should not depend on feelings. as they can lie to us too !!!..Praise The Lord.
Sunday 23 September 2012
Goodnes and Mercy.
Today i am grateful for the wonderful gift God has given me, my children, all grown up now, and the best accomplishment of my life,the best thing i have done,and the best gift from God,it may seem i am being Proud of myself,no i am proud of them,God has been looking after them and brought them to this point despite me!!!
The enemy of our Souls was bringing back some stuff from the past, so i know i cant be me who brought them through, The Enemy also wants me to think they are adrift without God in the Sea of this world, worrying that they are not saved,not living according to His will,or that they will go to Hell,But the Lord is victorious As always! So despite me and my failings,and the whispering campaign of the Father of Lies, God is taking care of them!
I have been ill for a while now, just cold and tummy,stuff,He has been leading me through some of the memories from the past,stuff from the Ex,which most of which I had forgotten,I don't really know why this has been happening, for what reason,maybe He wants it dealt with once and for all,As He has done before with me,He took me through every action individually the Ex had done, strangely I was not angry any more, but just answered how I would have liked him to have behaved,
i.e. His Mum being Nasty about me, IN FRONT of my children, when he took them for a walk there, ( I was not there, and only found out about it after I had kicked him out)
By Saying;
'Please don't put her down EVER, and especially not in front of her children, she is the woman I love, and I wont tolerate you speaking about her like that'
( in fact he was doing the same on the way there and joining in with her,and she swore too)
To be completely honest at the time i found EVERYTHING he did ANNOYING, but did not express that, like him!.
BUT.... i was living with Put downs, snide remarks, fear of violence...or lost temper
IF I HAD KNOWN....WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE?
i would have made him leave.
What is love?
Is it wanting me to be unhappy all the time?..,
is it,..
Teasing
Mocking
hitting
Strangling?
NO!
THEREFORE HE DOES NOT LOVE ME.....'
So sad,it must be very shocking to those who don't live like that, its a bit shocking to me to see it down here in black and white.....to others it may not seem a very serious thing that he did, he was violent too, i don't know why i have chosen to share this Particular instance...
It is indicative of his whole attitude, and a prelude to the recent instance where he attempted to ruin my relationship with my Daughter, and my other children too, which Hurt me more than ANYTHING else he ever did to me. He is claiming to be a changed person now,but the sneering look on his face I saw recently, and His lies to my Daughter in June,show there is no change at all in Him,..ie,(he said to my daughter that he had never tried to talk to me,but he had done 6 days before!)...
I am so far away from that now, i know i deserve better, i have dealt with the unforgiveness i have felt for years,my life is wonderful now, because i have God in it, He love me,He loves my children, in fact He gave them to me as the most precious gift, (after His love). Goodness and Mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.
The enemy of our Souls was bringing back some stuff from the past, so i know i cant be me who brought them through, The Enemy also wants me to think they are adrift without God in the Sea of this world, worrying that they are not saved,not living according to His will,or that they will go to Hell,But the Lord is victorious As always! So despite me and my failings,and the whispering campaign of the Father of Lies, God is taking care of them!
I have been ill for a while now, just cold and tummy,stuff,He has been leading me through some of the memories from the past,stuff from the Ex,which most of which I had forgotten,I don't really know why this has been happening, for what reason,maybe He wants it dealt with once and for all,As He has done before with me,He took me through every action individually the Ex had done, strangely I was not angry any more, but just answered how I would have liked him to have behaved,
i.e. His Mum being Nasty about me, IN FRONT of my children, when he took them for a walk there, ( I was not there, and only found out about it after I had kicked him out)
By Saying;
'Please don't put her down EVER, and especially not in front of her children, she is the woman I love, and I wont tolerate you speaking about her like that'
( in fact he was doing the same on the way there and joining in with her,and she swore too)
To be completely honest at the time i found EVERYTHING he did ANNOYING, but did not express that, like him!.
BUT.... i was living with Put downs, snide remarks, fear of violence...or lost temper
IF I HAD KNOWN....WHAT WOULD I HAVE DONE?
i would have made him leave.
What is love?
Is it wanting me to be unhappy all the time?..,
is it,..
Teasing
Mocking
hitting
Strangling?
NO!
THEREFORE HE DOES NOT LOVE ME.....'
So sad,it must be very shocking to those who don't live like that, its a bit shocking to me to see it down here in black and white.....to others it may not seem a very serious thing that he did, he was violent too, i don't know why i have chosen to share this Particular instance...
It is indicative of his whole attitude, and a prelude to the recent instance where he attempted to ruin my relationship with my Daughter, and my other children too, which Hurt me more than ANYTHING else he ever did to me. He is claiming to be a changed person now,but the sneering look on his face I saw recently, and His lies to my Daughter in June,show there is no change at all in Him,..ie,(he said to my daughter that he had never tried to talk to me,but he had done 6 days before!)...
I am so far away from that now, i know i deserve better, i have dealt with the unforgiveness i have felt for years,my life is wonderful now, because i have God in it, He love me,He loves my children, in fact He gave them to me as the most precious gift, (after His love). Goodness and Mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever.
Thursday 20 September 2012
Cup runneth over
today i am grateful for the blessing that God has given me,yesterday i was thinking what a wonderful life i have,i can do what i want, when i want,i can sleep all day, and i only have to go out when i want to!
I dont have to be aware of someone elses bad moods, and have to tiptoe around someone just to have an easy life! I have an easy life! I am loved by the Creator of the Universe,He accepts me,values me,and has adopted me as His daughter!!! I dont know how life could be any better!..'My cup runneth over'.....'to live is Christ, to die is Gain'
I dont have to be aware of someone elses bad moods, and have to tiptoe around someone just to have an easy life! I have an easy life! I am loved by the Creator of the Universe,He accepts me,values me,and has adopted me as His daughter!!! I dont know how life could be any better!..'My cup runneth over'.....'to live is Christ, to die is Gain'
Thursday 13 September 2012
Green Pastures
I am grateful today for the wonderful blessings that God has given me,its like that corny old song,'count your blessings one by one'!!God blesses everyone,... i donn't want to seem like i am saying God has blessed me, because there is something good about me or that i deserve it more than anyone else,there is nothing good about me, i am a wretched sinner, even now, after knowing God for so long!
I let Him down everyday, most people started their Walk with God actually thinking deep down that' I am not a bad person,'..(but ignore the bad i have done,) so of course expect to become an even better person further on in their walk,not like that at all,i started thinking i was good, and letting Him into a small part of my life,i now have Him in all parts of my life, and feel like a filthy rag in His presence!...
I have been praying every night for about two weeks asking Him not to let the Enemy give me bad dreams, (i cant remember where it was in the Bible), so last night i had a strange dream that i was naked in a car with the Ex, He was trying to get my attention,but we were in a huge grassy field, i was more interested in the Field!!! it seemed lke it was full of possibilities, i could turn it into a car Park,for all the houses which were around it in a rectangle,there was some sort of club going on,and people had parked on the grass, i hadn't known it was mine,when i knew i told someone that i would keep just a small square as a garden,but it was all mine!!.., i only had to claim it,take my own!!!! As ususal being me, i thought how it would bless others,!!..but then thought of it covered with tarmac,cars going in and out ruining it! Then i thought i'll give away a small part,so others can be blessed,but i really wanted to keep it all as it was,beautiful and green, an Oasis in the world.!!
I can think of a few obvious things it could mean, and had already decided it was about the Ex, and how he has no effect on me anymore,!!. (i was soon distracted from him when something better came along,in fact from the only part of the relationship which was good, which drew me to him in the first place!....), but having thought about the whole dream, there is more to it than that! I think He might be saying to me not to give away my Power, not to give my Inheritance away!!!
I let Him down everyday, most people started their Walk with God actually thinking deep down that' I am not a bad person,'..(but ignore the bad i have done,) so of course expect to become an even better person further on in their walk,not like that at all,i started thinking i was good, and letting Him into a small part of my life,i now have Him in all parts of my life, and feel like a filthy rag in His presence!...
I have been praying every night for about two weeks asking Him not to let the Enemy give me bad dreams, (i cant remember where it was in the Bible), so last night i had a strange dream that i was naked in a car with the Ex, He was trying to get my attention,but we were in a huge grassy field, i was more interested in the Field!!! it seemed lke it was full of possibilities, i could turn it into a car Park,for all the houses which were around it in a rectangle,there was some sort of club going on,and people had parked on the grass, i hadn't known it was mine,when i knew i told someone that i would keep just a small square as a garden,but it was all mine!!.., i only had to claim it,take my own!!!! As ususal being me, i thought how it would bless others,!!..but then thought of it covered with tarmac,cars going in and out ruining it! Then i thought i'll give away a small part,so others can be blessed,but i really wanted to keep it all as it was,beautiful and green, an Oasis in the world.!!
I can think of a few obvious things it could mean, and had already decided it was about the Ex, and how he has no effect on me anymore,!!. (i was soon distracted from him when something better came along,in fact from the only part of the relationship which was good, which drew me to him in the first place!....), but having thought about the whole dream, there is more to it than that! I think He might be saying to me not to give away my Power, not to give my Inheritance away!!!
Wednesday 12 September 2012
Fruitful in the land of my suffering
Today i am grateful to belong to a Master that loves me,the enemies followers are not loved, he hates them as they hate him,and will relish torturing them in Hell, and i am grateful too, for my God who ALWAYS gives us the victory over the Enemy of our souls, the Father of Lies,
He was defeated on the Cross and is just marking time until the inevitable Lake of Fire, he is called in the Gospel of John, the 'Prince of this world'. He still has power on the Earth,i was wondering why when he had lived in Heaven,and yet wanted more?.., he was Powerful, he was the leader of Praise, he had Position, and like all people who desire power over others in the world, its never enough.!..
I have had the enemy trying to get at me in the last few weeks, and for a while i allowed him the Victory, because i am a weak vessel,but i know My Master is the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords,and claimed His protection.
I had intended to list everything that the Enemy was trying against me,but i am determined to look forward NOT back. God has made me 'fruitful in the land of my suffering', as i was able to tell a person who had betrayed me years ago, exactly what i thought of them, sweet....no guilt at all, (i did sound bitter, but i gave this person a lot of my time, listened for hours to her, only to be betrayed when she thought something better came alone, so sad.... so funny!....)
i had not done it before because i did not want to hurt her feelings!!!!....crazy, she had no care about my feelings!! I wish i had done it sooner though!! , not 8 years!!..She is a controlling manipulative person, (who is in a position now where she can tell others how to run their lives, so shes happy,!!) Controlling and Manipulating people have been a plague in my life, the Enemy repeatedly uses them.
I have been learning the Praise song 'Softly and tenderly Jesus is calling', i heard on a Johny Cash C.D, ' M mothers Hymn book', wonderful. Praise Him for His love, and care for us.
He was defeated on the Cross and is just marking time until the inevitable Lake of Fire, he is called in the Gospel of John, the 'Prince of this world'. He still has power on the Earth,i was wondering why when he had lived in Heaven,and yet wanted more?.., he was Powerful, he was the leader of Praise, he had Position, and like all people who desire power over others in the world, its never enough.!..
I have had the enemy trying to get at me in the last few weeks, and for a while i allowed him the Victory, because i am a weak vessel,but i know My Master is the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords,and claimed His protection.
I had intended to list everything that the Enemy was trying against me,but i am determined to look forward NOT back. God has made me 'fruitful in the land of my suffering', as i was able to tell a person who had betrayed me years ago, exactly what i thought of them, sweet....no guilt at all, (i did sound bitter, but i gave this person a lot of my time, listened for hours to her, only to be betrayed when she thought something better came alone, so sad.... so funny!....)
i had not done it before because i did not want to hurt her feelings!!!!....crazy, she had no care about my feelings!! I wish i had done it sooner though!! , not 8 years!!..She is a controlling manipulative person, (who is in a position now where she can tell others how to run their lives, so shes happy,!!) Controlling and Manipulating people have been a plague in my life, the Enemy repeatedly uses them.
I have been learning the Praise song 'Softly and tenderly Jesus is calling', i heard on a Johny Cash C.D, ' M mothers Hymn book', wonderful. Praise Him for His love, and care for us.
Sunday 9 September 2012
Victim blaming
Today i am grateful for my God who is a just, and fair Judge.i am quite annoyed today after at the back of a shelf i found a small booklet called 'domestic abuse, how to help', written by well intentioned christian counsellors, all MEN!! after several well meaning phrases such as 'they' (abused) may feel like they contributed to the war' 'she has some power to subdue it' ( the violence),' the most annoying is,'wield their tongue in ways that GOAD to violence'.... Surely there is never an Instance where Violence against a weaker person is justified,NEVER A REASON for violence. It is VICTIM BLAMING again.
(Maybe i should call myself a'domestic violence activist',like my sister,who calls herself a' disability rights activist', who in reality is just a vicious housewife with a platform, twitter,and yet treats those in her close family who are disabled like dirt, and get myself on television, supposedly speaking for the down trodden!!!! I actually have experience to talk about!!....maybe thats been done to death...and no-one is taken in by it...i am not interested in fame though,or think i am entitled to tell other people what to do!!or be controlling!!......
Thursday 6 September 2012
Good friends
I am grateful today for good friends that the Lord has given me,people who i can confide in,cant always trust not to tell those i don't want to know my personal business,but like my Mum always said, if you tell others personal stuff,how much do you really care about it anyway....I am using Ben's laptop at the moment,Nathan is using mine,Max has started school this week a few tears but he likes it when he gets there!!
Tuesday 4 September 2012
Dynamite in praise
Today i am grateful to God for the fact that i have so many good things in my life to Praise Him for,for finding an ancient book from the seventies, with a lurid front cover..' there's dynamite in praise,' by Don Gosset,i have been trying to sort the house out before i have heating installed,and had taken books off one bookcase to move to another,in it i finally found the verse that i had been wondering about for ages, from the Bible which says, the Lord inhabits the praises of His people,the King James actual verse is'Thou art Holy, O thou that inhabits the praises of Isreal', to paraphrase and i only have read two chapters so far,God is present when we Pray, i remember talking to Rob, and saying ;its easy to stir people Up in the Lord' he was surprised, and i think he thought i was boasting, and i had rather big-headedly thought it was a gift the Lord had given me1 but when i pray and people get stirred up, all i am doing is telling God who He is!!.,its simple....i.e God is good, loving caring, no respecter of persons, loves us even when we sin, who cant fail to get sirred up? and Praise Him for it!
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