Thursday 16 December 2021

panic attack or Anxiety?

I had a panic attack on Sunday,it was scary, i really thought i was having a heart attack....i would really not ever have that happen again,its a weird thing not to be in control of your own body, its like when labour starts, its beyond anyones control and will keep happening... I dont really know if thats a good analogy,i spoke to a mental health nurse today, and was given some breathing exercises to help calm down..i suppose its been a hard few months,with what Joe did,stealing from myself and Ben, but most of all, with Tash being overdue by two weeks, then she had the baby, a suspected blood clot, and later being told she had pleurisy and Pneumonia... It was strange to hear myself say to the Nurse," i have forgiven people who did bad thing to me in the past",reading this blog over the years it doesnt seem like that...and also i was a much better Christian than i am now, talking about God, at every oportunity,and i dont want to not give glory to God, He has really brought me through the bad stuff, and i remember once saying to a Pyschiatrist some of the things i have been through, sorry which God has brought me through,and he was amazed i was still here! I did want to go back and slap that previous me!..