Two or three gathered together, He is there

So what does the phrase mean 'church is not a spectator sport'? In the book its from it talks about how people hunger for more of God, for deeper fellowship, with each other and God, how we all seek out 'families to be part of,How He puts us in families, He made us that way,So is sitting back and just observing His plan for us?
Some one i know was really convicted about this, and his solution to this?..having different people run the meeting, which worked for a while, but of course it did not last, people were too used to being told what to do and the man running it did not really want to give up control....!
So how do we deal with the Hunger for more of God and close Fellowship,maybe we should examine what we don't want church to be...sometimes taking away all restrictions result in chaos,everyone doing their own thing,the louder ones dominating, quieter one still as silent, but still no real effective fellowship, so still the Hunger and Yearning, some people are happy with that because they don't want any closer contact than that, but what of those that do? What answer for them?
Do the Un-satisfied stay where they feel alone,despairing of change and give up their Zeal.Or leave disillusioned and bitter?
I was in a church where everyone was scared to share their deepest feelings, where outside friends were frowned on, even extended  families discouraged. (presumably the commandment to honour parents, even if they disagreed with the 'church', was flexible!).I was saved into this body of believers (they even called themselves the 'Body' of Christ.)!!!..So it took along time for me to feel freedom in Christ,and to come out of that system of control.
The Bible says ' even a child shall lead them,how could this happen when Kids are shut away from the main meeting? I speak from experience that Kids learn the most important things 'at their mother knee'.
So where is the happy medium? freedom from man's control, and freedom in Christ?
The early church used to meet in homes,and the Bibles says 'one would bring a word, another a Psalm', so everyone would share,  one person did not speak all the time.When i have had house meetings my self or been to them, i feel i can trust those with my struggles,share with them, encourage them in their troubles, tell how we learned to walk closer to God...'By the blood of the Lamb, AND the word of our testimony.The Bible does not say 'go to church and lose your Zeal, be bored through a Sermon' (NEVER mentioned in the Word) But it does say ' do not neglect the gathering together'
Church is not a Spectator sport, its FAMILY

What is 'Church'?

I read somewhere that 'church is not a spectator sport', so why have so many 'churches ' just become a 'show' where you sit down to be entertained for an hour and a half? Where we are called 'Pigs and Dogs' and are emotionally beaten up for 90 minutes?
Where we pay for the privilege? !!!!...where from the front the man says ' i know how much all of you earn, and you are not giving 10%?. ...Is 'Church' a business, where people get ' told off' if not enough money is coming in? Like naughty children in front of a school master!
Where is the Love of God? Where is the genuine concern and Love shown for others and their needs?...are the poor and needy cared for..., the Widow and Orphans?
Or is it just the Friends of the people who regard themselves as in' charge 'who are helped? , the smelly disabled person who lives in Squalor ignored and gossipped about..?...The annoyingly talkative old ladies just brushed off and ignored, the man at the front condemning Gossipping, who no one dares tell its his wife who is the worst.
The couple who are openly living in Sin,which is ignored, and even Baptised?  because they are friends of the power that be?...Is this Church?...
If Jesus turned up on the doorstep tomorrow, asking to preach,would He be told,' you need to be here for a while, and prove yourself before you can'
Whispering behind hands, everyone knows everyone else private world, Except one person, one person who does share his faults, his pain, his love, the un-touchable, above all others, looking down from a great height, Judging.....
Is this 'church' where man reigns? ....

My Choice...not to be a victim..

Today i am grateful for days when i am well,when i am able to do my garden, and my house without having a bad back or migraine or the 'runs'!...for days when i have the energy to go out, and have fellowship with friends. Not many days when that happens, but i am really thankful when they happen! Praise Him! Being anywhere my Ex (Howard)is causes me to be ill,the runs the next day, and the day after he was at my friends house, i had such a bad migraine, i couldn't see!!!
People can and do accuse me of being unforgiving, but that is their problem, i have forgiven, and just want to live my life without him, being where i go,i do have that choice, which he tries to take away from me.But i don't have to let him,!!!!!...   I am NOT A VICTIM anymore.! Praise God for the strength every day!

Bugs to be swatted

Today i am grateful for,...a very mundane everyday thing, my Car,i can go where ever i want,any meetings or church i need to get to,my caravan, i have not really appreciated it enough,until i have met someone who has to travel on public transport.
We are going to use it tomorrow to go to take Darren to visit his 88 yr old Grandmother, in London.The weather is very hot here, so it will be a struggle to be in the car for 2-3 hours,Yes its true we Brits are very obsessed with the weather!!!.., it seems strange to others, but we are governed by the weather on this small Island,we don't have just one or two changes in the weather, over the year,or one constant temperature like other countries, it does vary, a lot, we can have a snow storm, and then bright sunshine in the same day.
Our Summers, never follow a pattern as it does elsewhere, it can and does Rain all Summer, or be cold all Summer, i suppose what i am trying to get to is that you can never rely on the Weather to be what is expected for that Season, it can be very frustrating, and difficult to make plans.!!!...
I have been very disappointed with a close friend of Mine recently, Mike, I have been let down again...i expect people to be loyal to me, and not put me in difficult situation, i am very loyal to friends, and have tirelessly defended him fr to others,...always hurts me when its not returned.
I wont be able to go to their house again,because; the Ex has started going there again, when he knew i was there, (my car was outside),he had stopped going where i was,last year when i was in town,(i was in a D.v.d shop , and he waited outside, until i came out,) I assume it was the Solicitors letter.!!
At this persons house, he came in tried to say hello to me and Ben but i turned away,(Ben wanted to hit him!),i could have had him arrested for even speaking to me! I was eating when he arrived, i had been invited by The Lodger, as he was making a big meal...I said i 'had to go soon' to other people in the room,( i had already planned to go to a Ladies Prayer meeting, and was about to leave when he turned up,) He said in a loud Voice, 'everyone's leaving now' He should not flatter himself to think i will be driven out of anywhere by him!!!..
Of course he can say what he likes to me and i cant say anything back, as i don't talk to him, i was upset about this for a few days, mostly the fear and annoyance. So i have decided that i wont be going to the 'Friends ' house again, as it is the last place where the Ex can make his sarcastic remarks to me.
The 'Friend' Mike should not be putting me in this situation, he really is no friend at all...He is another one who just wants me at the meeting cos i'm supposed to get answers to prayers! Very Sad, i really liked him, and his house mates.But really he has chosen the Ex over me!!!..He can still come here, to pray, but i know he will get offended when i have to tell him.

Blessings and Visions

Today i am grateful to God for my five healthy Sons and daughters,they are such a blessing,and although sometimes i feel guilty to have so many when some people can't have any, it was hard when they were younger to bring them up on my own, sometimes i have looked at them and thought 'am i responsible for the great people they have turned out to be'?,because it was just my influence in their lives, i wish i could claim that! I know it was the Lord who brought me through, even though i did not even get born-again until they were older children, between 2-10yrs.I know God has been looking after me my whole life, (as He does for everyone)
The question which was puzzling me yesterday was 'why do some people think i get prayers answered when others don't'? Someone i know has said that he cant have meetings without me because of this!!!..I don't want to have meetings with them any more,i am not being treated well.My wonderful friend Sandra has said that i get prayers answered because i am following Him, maybe others are'nt....She gets prayers answered too, also God speaks to her in Visions!

Good friend, wonderful fellowship.

I am really really grateful to God today for my new friend Sandra! What a blessing she is to me,i have only known her for a Month, but to me it seems i have always known her! I started to talk to her at the Baptism at the church,I did not want to go, because of the Ex, but i knew God wanted me to go, i had actually left the Church building,and was about to get into the car! but went back in, and started to talk to her...Praise Him,She is very kind and is always there for me, we could talk up to two hours a day.
It has been an exciting day and a very upseting day too...wonderful ladies meeting,i asked for Prayer, and i am sure that God has healed me.
I am not going to talk about the upsetting things at the moment,its not worth dwelling on that,and i dont want to give the emeny the Victory again... People let us down, but God never does.

Has the Rapture happened, Mum?

Today i am thankful for having a house to live in,its an old, hundred year old terraced house,Red Brick.I have spent the last 26 years here, the longest time i have spent anywhere,as we moved around a lot when i was a child.I love this house, its nothing special, but its ours,everywhere i look there are Memories!..
The Lord gives me dreams of houses, sometimes they have secret rooms full of antique furniture,which is treasure to me! I have rarely dreamt about this house, and the only time i can remember is when i had the dream about Brenda my friend dying, and getting the news, i had dreamt i was walking down the stairs, where the wall is was open and the Ex told me, when i did found out she had died,it was the Ex, just at the bottom of the wall,where the Phone was,about 2 feet from where i dreamt it.!!!..Joe dreamt once that the Rapture was spreading across the country, a war was being waged right up to our house,he came down stairs looking dishevelled and said' has the Rapture happened'! so cute!!..