Sleepy,and Sundays!

If i was of a suspicious nature i would think that someone has put a 'curse' on me, because the last few days i have had trouble staying awake...even after having a full nights sleep!!, but of course i have forgotten to ask the Lord to turn back any curses which come our way, so if i believed it....Jon rang up on Sunday to talk to Ben , after i had told Colin, (Ben's Granddad that Ben didn't want to go there for the ritual Sunday visit,) Ben was angry with his Dad and told him so! which for someone who has communication problems was absolutley amazing!!..I was very proud of him, and i am proud of Joe too! i really thought that although Jon was violent to weaker women he really did love his Sons..he doesn't..he cant with the way he talks to them, but it has made me rethink the way that he and his family have behaved towards me over the years, i knew they talked badly about me behind my back, and i accepted it, unpleasant though it was, i didn't feel inclined to do anything about it and just thought it was important that they saw their family,of course being Manipulating and controlling they thought the had me in 'their pocket'!! which was true because they did get their own way! The weekly ritual of Sunday afternoons has been going on for 26 years, and i always knew that that would be the only time Jon would see them, and when they were younger i knew they were safe because Colin and Sheila were responsible people.But now as they are both grown up i don't have to be always so accommodating, always fitting in with their plans!! its quite freeing really!!!,(it is a shame that as Colin and Sheila are in their 80's, they wont be around for ever,and will have limited time to see their Grandchildren and Great Grandchildren,but i must keep reminding myself that i didn't do this!! it was Jon, its not my responsibility to keep them happy!!)