Today i am grateful to God for...some Wisdom He has given me,and the great Blessings my children are from Him,i know they are Gifts from God for me,and i have done the best i could for them, and now they are independent adults,with their own lives,i like them a lot.
I made mistakes,things i will always regret,but i am very happy with the people they have turned out to be, they all have a sense of fair play,i hope would never bully others,Joe said that they have all got those good things from me,and that they are the people they are because of me, which is nice to know.It is hard to take compliments,i don't now if its because i am female, and guilt seems to be par 'for the course',or its the abuse i suffered!
I now the battle of the mind we all go through is really a dialogue with the Enemy, the father of lies, who is always trying to bring us down,make us feel bad, about our failures and bad choices,the 'whispering campaign'....its no co-incidence that the Abusers voice SHOUTS our own insecurities back at us!!! we know where he gets it from!!!
So here i am, in this house,the abusers have come and gone,like fleeting wisps of evil,and they left me with still other people!,wonderful people! who have part of my soul,but not the evil of the wisps,like ships that pass in the night,not the soul stealer's,the soul ties are cut....they hold no part of me....they are gone forever, they cant hurt me,the words they uttered, have just evaporated like they never existed..... I can see my life in this house,where i have been for 28 years,my life just passing by on a video,with me existing as i am now everyone else going at fast forward, leaving me with the ones who my heart sings for,and God gave them to me,a truly truly wonderful gift.
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