'Feminazis' and nice sympathetic woman...

I have been reading some opinions by Feminists,most of them say that women are 'conditioned' to be subservient to men, which is all very well, but we know that most women are brought up by other women so where does that leave us! they believe that women are born like that but have it instilled into them in some way, but then believe that its men's nature to be 'dominant'..but i don't believe that,i know that God has made me into a 'nice sympathetic women'(Mikes words not mine!)
God has given us women that nature, how could we be mothers and grandmothers without it, the Human race would not survive, because women would not want to rear children!
I am the Prayer secretary for the local branch of the Christian Motorcyclist association,today i forwarded the prayer request from Colin the Pastor, who does the Biker church in Warrington,he was asking for Prayer for Helen and Brian,i forwarded it all to everyone i could think of,with tears pouring down my face,and then was going to go on Facebook to ask the C.M.A in South Africa, Australia,but i know that God knows my desire for Helen to be healed, here on earth,i don't cling to His Promise to heal her, i let emotion get the better of me!i suppose its o.k to cry about what they are going through,but i'm not crying about that!, i am crying because i don't want her to die, which is against what i believe that God has said!!
So i am full of contradictions!...hypocrisy really!!i still doubt God!! I have never been in this situation before,with a friend who is so ill, and i don't know how to handle it, i want to be there for them both,which i cant be because of my responsibilities,i am good friends with them both, i thought close friends, but not close enough to be going through this with them, but Di, the chairwoman of the Branch has said that they have a lot of support,although Brian did say he had no-one to talk to..but maybe he meant in a womanly sense of a female to share with, but Helen can still communicate with her I-Pad, but maybe he feels he has to be strong for her...
I feel i am letting everyone down..and i don't know what to do about it...