Stealing the Glory

(I saw somewhere yesterday that we should keep a diary and write in it every day how we are blessed!. so i am hoping to do this every time i do this blog)

Today i am grateful for the blessing of, a garden.   its a mess and there are far to many slugs, but its a blessing, the neighbour at the end said he did not want to buy the end of it now,as there would not be enough room,he had wanted to build a shed on it, and half of it is covered in old wood i use for the fire, so i offered him half of it,but not enough for him, he had said 'i will pay its all money in your pocket'! very strange, i am not interested in money at all!...i was willing to just let him use the space!
Why does the worldly people think everyone loves money? is it because they do  Odd to me!
I am quite troubled at the moment by some of the people i have fellowship with,one person is very very keen to have the meetings at their house,i don't know why this troubles me....could it be the wrong reasons,?...this person has always wanted to change the meeting to their house, even years ago when we had meetings here, at the time i knew God wanted them here, so took no notice....its still bothering me, why Lord...is it for their Glory? God does not share His Glory with others!....the other person i cant talk about yet, but me and S, have been puzzled about it too!...
Its not boastful to say that God has used me as a Catalyst, in the sense that i could get people to meetings,or if i went to others meeting the Holy Spirit would turn up , because i was there!, its happened so many times,but its nothing in me,i am not worthy... but it does happen....I remember saying to this friend of mine, 'oh its easy to get people stirred up' ( in the Spirit),and it was for me but he looked amazed!.. it was just a throw away comment to me, but as soon as i said it i knew it was wrong to say it out loud,it was a giftt to be Used for HIS Glory, and if i told people they would think i was Boasting!
So i am responsible for the consequences of that Gift, and He will hold me responsible with what happens.Years ago i was having meetings, but at the end it was in the wrong spirit,i wanted to hold onto them, 'My' meetings....wrong wrong wrong...
So this is what is happening now, it usually starts in me as an unease,which wont go away!...God knows.He will give the answer in His time.

Another lesson from The Good Shepard

God is good!...ALL THE TIME! Praise Him. I have had a bad back, since Saturday or Sunday, and i was starting to worry why it was not going,'could it be that it is not my back, but my kidneys'? and had started to worry, and even told Sandra on the phone this morning that i would prob have to go to the Doctor! After speaking to her i prayed and asked God to take it away if it was the Enemy,( because it had stopped me going to the women's meeting last night), or if not that to show me what to do about it! Later i went outside, and on the way the answer came, that i had been fixing the lean-to roof outside, and had to lift it up to get support under it! So I had Lifted something heavy, and that's why my back is painful1 Thank you Lord for the answer,i just have to wait it out!
Yet again another lesson that i should be asking God FIRST before trying to answer things myself!!!..And of course i am letting the Enemy have the Victory because i have Missed out on the meeting!...i am pretty exasperated with Myself, the Lord has taught me this lesson before, yet i do it over and over, how do i remember this? Ask Him to remind me....

God is good.

Praise Him, wonderful weekend, went to  lovely service, the end of a Christian writers conference,The Vicar who did my Mums funeral mentioned they were having it, and it was also advertised at the church,could not afford the whole weekend,and i object to paying to go to anything Christian, conferences, Does God  provide for His children or Not? He is no Mans debtor.We have had some wonderful meetings this past week,its Exciting when God does stuff.Praise Him.

Frances and Tambourines

Getting near to the Olypics here in London, really couldn't care less, no one i know is remotely interested!, the Queens Jubilee is coming up soon, that should be good, everyone loves that , but also of course because we get a day off!
We went to see Frances yesterday,and we also went to a church which is right in a town centre,right in the middle of the life of the town,i bought a tamborineWhere Frances lives, in her room  we were singing songs from some 'songs of fellowship' books i had  in the car,and the people in charge of the Old peoples home where Frances lives asked us to go and sing in the main room,!!!... there were about 15-20 residents, and some of them joined in with the older hymms like 'abide with me' 'all things bright and beautiful' ' 'Love divine'. what a blessed time! we are going to go back again,and try to be a blessing again, maybe take Andre who can play Piano.

Victory in Him

My Grandson Max's birthday yesterday, he was four! we had a lovely family party, it meant that i had to miss the Ladies meeting.Ben was excited, which meant that he was getting into my face a lot and punching people too, not hard though!..Its so good to have a united family, just happy to be together,and despite the enemy of out soul trying to Ruin that through the Ex, God has the victory again!..Praise Him.

His Still Small Voice

I have had a really busy week. when God starts something its hard to keep up! Praise Him!! had a wonderful meeting on Tuesday with some of the other women,wonderful teaching,such a blessing to me, i had felt really tired and had almost not gone, i would have missed such a lot!... There is good news about my friend in prison, he has had many letters! he was feeling neglected and forgotten,which was not the intention at all,!.. some of his letters to his friends had gone astray, and so people had not written back to him,not a good excuse from any of us.....but he has cheered up now, and that's the main thing!
We went to Elizabeth's on Thursday, what a wonderful blessing!!.., the ladies i took were blessed too,it a great thing to get together with those of like Mind.
One of the ladieswho was there had smuggled bibles into a country which was against Christianity, always great to see her.I am sure she will not mind if i share her story,we live a long way from London, and she had struggled down on the train, connections were not good and she arrived late and very discouraged to the meeting point and they had already shared out the bibles between them, she was even more discouraged, and had thought' Lord, whats the point of me even going?' but she felt to go anyway, when they got to the border of this Anti-Christian Land, hers was the only bag searched!! praise the Lord! HE knew what he was doing all along!!!..
Sometimes the Lord would wake me up when she was there, and tell me to pray, there and then for her,turned out later that was just the times when she was in danger or things were difficult!!. She told us when she came back that they had arranged to meet  Christian brothers with a van to pick up the Bibles, but because all the buildings looked alike they could not find the right place, and there were very few public phones for them to contact anyone,there were quite a few in her party, some who were Pastors, and people who were very full of themselves!!.., but my friend,is a very quiet,and gentle, it had got to the point where they had to just pray for the Lords help..,Did God speak to the Pastors or the ones who thought a lot of themselves.....?  NO he spoke to my friend, just quietly and gently He said gently 'go this wasy'she was able to lead them to the brother with the Van. A perfect Example of the Still Small Voice....!!Praise God....for He is good, and all the people said.....AMEN!!...

May day

I was really sad today when my ex stepdaughter ran to the back of the shop so she would not have to serve me, of course she wants to stand up for her Dad, and i suppose is angry about the Solicitors letter in September telling him to leave me alone.
Well its May day now, a very big festival in the Witchcraft year,i anointed around the boundary of the house before it got dark, i heard about that from Dr Rebecca Brown in one of her books,they are all excellent,'Prepare for War'and 'He came to set the captives free'and Standing on the Rock'.
She said to have a spay bottle, fill it with oil,olive or veg, pray over it asking the Lord to bless it,and spray a line all round the property boundaries, i try to do it on all the Witchcraft festivals, also the full moon too, otherwise i cannot sleep! The Lord has shown me in visions that the Angels are in a circle outside the line, hand in hand and the demons are trying to get past the Angels but to no avail, the Angels just laugh at them!...
God is good and always protects us when we ask Him too!
Mike is troubling me again, he can find no reason to get out of bed, so doesn't...Spoke to my lovely friend Andre today, was able to share some of the Aggravation i have had with the Ex.Nice just to talk to him, we used to talk a lot,but that was my fault again....