Never complain, never explain...

He was buried yesterday,(Mike) Ben and Joe wanted to go,and i also gave Sue Page a lift there as she cant drive at the moment,in the service it was announced that there would be tea and cakes at Mikes Church afterwards, so she asked if we could go, of course i couldnt really think of a reason not to although i wasnt keen!!!, we went, (i really am not going to discuss the reasons why i dont want to go there with her!) She knows obviously!.. they all do,and she even said 'Howards daughters?'when i was talking about that he had died, and i corrected myself and said'Howards Son and Daughter'. I am not talking about private family business, what is the point, they all knew Howard and it would then be the old 're-hash' of his word against mine...if they had been trusted friends in the past, i may have considered it but i almost did not going to Mikes funeral when it finally dawned on me that so many people knew, Tash had said the pastors 'wife is nice too', well that of course sparked my curiousity..the Enemies trap of course! and i said when did you meet her then,the 'Pastor' had been to visit howard in the Hospice,but i didnt expect her to go, (Although of course he was part of the church), Tash said she 'came up to us in the shop she worked in'....how would she know what Tash and Alice look like?.. God willing i am not likely to see Sue, Andre,or any of that Churches people ever again,but it did make me think how i would react if anyone ever asks me outright,'well i told you i was raped right?...and try not to get angry!! I take after the wonderful Queen i am named after,'Never complain never expalain' if they want to probe they can! feel free!!! strangely no one has!...