limbo

Oh dear oh dear, i am in limbo...i was asked by someone why i didn't want to go to bikers church yesterday, i explained the situation, and have heard nothing... i stated that i did not want to get anyone in trouble,but just could not respect that person lets call him Dick!!. anymore, of course it would be easier to get back into my sent emails and check it had been sent, but for some reason I cant get the sent emails up!!so i don't know if it has gone through, if it has been ignored ,or it has been taken "further" which i don't really want...i did not ask for confidentiality, but it is the sort of thing that is just expected!!....My Mum always used to say that if you had a secret, its yours, and if you share it expect it to become others property,no-one else will respect your secrets as they are not important to them,but am i being a hypocrite?.., on this blog i have named the abusers, as abuse only survives by secrecy,here in U.K there is now a facility to find out if someone has been convicted of Domestic violence offences, but many aren't,Mine haven't been convicted ,so that's why i have named them, its been a year and they haven't objected or denied it! i hate secrets because i am an honest person, and see no need for any secrecy..but my Mum is right in a way because now its out of my hands i don't have control over where it goes,or whats done with it, it has a life of its own!! but i told a trusted friend, i shared something that i have struggled with for weeks...i am not ready for it to be public property..but its been taken out of my hands...if i had wanted the person in trouble i could have complained myself,and still i don't know what is happening!! its like that song from the 1980's about aliens invading earth 'and still they come'moody blues i think!!