covid? or just a virus

Its been a hard month, we have all had a bad cough,and took antibiotics,Ben still has a cough,i dont know if it was covid...we all got ill...i dont really care if it was Covid or not though, we are better now, getting tested does not help us to get better! its no benefit to my family!! I have been feeling quite emotional in the last few months,i thought it might have been the virus we had, but then i think back to Darren going, and Mike and even Howard, all people i cared about at one time,i never stopped Caring about Darren, and although he was hard to take sometimes, he was never nasty to me or my kids,obviously Mike was ill...and the last time i spoke to him he was angry and not nice at all..ok maybe he had an excuse as he had BiPolar..both Sue and i had experienced that and both were talking to his friend Petes wife and she was saying what a wonderful man he was, he was wonderful sometimes, but both of us knew that he wouldnt have ever been aggressive with us if we had husbands...obviously we were seen as lower than Peters wife!