Lead us not into temptation.....

It has been quite a week for me, not outwardly,but i have been struggling with a few things, Tooth absses made me miss a meeting at C.m.a,which was at Chris and Claire's,who are always very entertaining, we laugh from begining to end, Helen told me that Di just curled up on the sofa and was happy from there on! There is a meeting next week so God willing i will get there!!,the bright spot of the week is i am getting some Patches for my leather biker waistcoat from my wonderful Sister in Christ, Terry loving! (who runs the excellent website " Spiritual Side of Domestic violence").and some lovely bracelets too!
I am going to wear them all so proudly,and hope to be able to help some other abuse survivors,when i am on the stall(C.M.A.) witnessing to unbelievers,I only tell my story to Glorify God,but of course sometimes people just focus on the bad stuff,when we were going to Biker church, Brian put on a christian teaching tape, where one of the women had been healed by God from the after affects of abuse, and Brian asked me," Is this o.k, Elisa" so of course i am always the woman who bad things happened to!..
I remember a woman who gave her testimony, her son had died in his teens,but she spoke about how God had brought her and her husband through it , and they had not lost their faith,it was a victorious story, and she was giving glory to Him all the way through, but of course whenever i see her she is the woman whose son died! So if i react that way why do i expect others to react differently to me!!..
i have just been listening to a bible teacher who is saying the Prayer of Jabez,says "keep Evil away from me today" deliver me from evil, should be prayed every day, temptation,sin etc.Keep me from people who rub me up the wrong way,people who cause us to Sin, the father of lies will lead us to "seek,kill, and destroy"Of course it is not the other persons fault if we sin! the teacher was saying he hates laziness, so lazy people annoy him so much he gets into sin,i am afraid that i know exactly who does this to me,to a small extent its my ex abusers, but they have more or less been cut out of my life, Praise God,..but there was a woman who comes from a believing family of excellent Christians who i have known for many years, and she did some work for me,very badly,which was o.k because i couldn't do it myself,she got paid very well (over double that of others doing the same Job),What was most upsetting , and demeaning was the rudeness,the unkind things she said to me,and even though she was paid in excess, she made many hints about others who employed her who paid petrol money!!(wanting me to pay it too!!),and spent most of the two hours i employed her telling me her problems!!
She has been Un-diagnosed depressive for many years, unless its her personality...which is whinging and whining and never satisfied with her life, although she has had a house, cars, given to her by her parents,when she was bringing up her children on benefits (at the same time as i was) her parents helped her with money, and support, i got nothing from anyone else,no emotional support or even basic help with babysitting. we were both divorced women bringing up children on our own So what i am trying very badly trying to get to is that the Bible teacher i just heard was saying is that it is o.k to avoid those people who would cause us to sin.I know it says somewhere in the bible, to avoid those who cause division in the body,not exact quote! Of course!!
So how do we deal with these irritating toxic people?, we still have to love them as Christ does, we can still pray for them,but as the Lords Prayer says " lead us not into temptation" I suppose it is the same with every temptation that comes out way, we have to avoid it at all costs and that means people too!! It is impossible to be as "Christ to them",we may have Gods Holy Spirit living in us,but we still have our human natures, which are weak, and easily lead!!!....MINE IS ANYWAY!! CANT SPEAK FOR ANYONE ELSE!!..
I know God has changed my Heart towards my Ex's, as i no longer feel anger, or un-forgiveness to them,or anything really,i have to grit my teeth when i pray for them! but i do it!(Of course i did tell Jon,my Ex, Ben and Joe's father,and violent to me,what i thought of him, this may be seen as un -forgiveness by non believers, but it was because he was hurting my children..).His Parents who i thought of as excellent people, (as if he was born into a vacuum,with no other family members being like him) i now see as part of the problem, as they constantly pay his debts,listen to his blaming of others for all his problem,he even blames his own children for his failings and i am sure he blames me too!.
Howard used to say,if i had just given him "enough support",he would have been an o.k husband, trouble was i gave him nothing but support!..with every aspect of his life!!,but as all us survivors know its never enough! Its just another blaming of others for their failings..