Three saved from the Pit!! Party in Heaven!!

God is good! Praise Him,Brian was able to give a Dutchman a Biker Bible two years ago at the local Bikers church service we have a a local Biker Cafe,he put the Bible away and went back home, he was on holiday,he found it again recently and through it came to the Lord, he contacted the Pastor of the biker Church and told him, so even with all the Pain that is going on for Brian and Helen at the moment God still gives us fruit!Praise Him! It is significant that both Brian and Helen have brought people to the Lord,a woman called Carole were brought to the Lord by Helen and Clare,and with a guy who had a Bible at the Bike show we do in April and October, in Stafford, he came to the Lord too! I suppose the Enemy is mad, because that is three people who wont be spending Eternity with him in Hell.
It is so so so encouraging!!Praise God

No.No No

Yet another fight with the Vet yesterday because he wants to put Nipper down muttering about "his quality of life", this is just so typical, he has had his leg problems for two years,and his quality of life is just the same as it always was in the those two years...of course he did have a young student with him so he was a bit more pushy...
Ben is still on his medicine,only half a dose because he wont take it in the daytime,he generally seems happier in himself... but he wont go to any of the many activities available...i have let it slide for a while but will pray for Help to get him involved..Joe and Daisy are having some housing difficulties,and have asked Mark if they could move into his house,which is in town so more convenient.

more chinks

Its been a while since i posted,and despite me asking every one not to mention the ones who have cut me out of their lives,its come up from unexpected places!! i should have expected this of course the Enemy is like a prowling Lion,always looking for sin in our lives or chinks in the armour, but God is Good, and always comforts and Protects us,i have found this so true today,i have been feeling restless and He has been giving me "shots" of His love,like waves of Love spreading all over me, i have had this experience when i have been doing bible studies, recently but because i haven't done this for a few days now i wasn't expecting or deserving of any of this!!
So i started panicking, because its the same feeling i have when i have fasted all day,(hyper sensitive,all my 'spidey senses' in overdrive), and thinking that He was sending His love into me because something bad was going to happen,most of all, with Helen who has taken another downturn in her motor neuron disease, she cant have any food through her mouth now, and had some bad choking.So I am feeling very emotional, feel like crying for no reason.
I have prayed, repented of anything which could have caused this, and i felt something leave so am feeling better now, Praise God!

PORN!

Well not that's got your attention!! i would like to say that if you are reading this from any of the Porn sites that strangely view this blog!, you need to turn to Jesus, like any other Human being in this world you don't deserve to be saved, neither did I, nothing you have done is bad enough for God not to forgive you, He loves you now,as much as He loves me ,a supposed 'good' born again person,its not an Insurance Policy for a perfect life, but you will know perfect Un-conditional love, which is after all what everyone in the world is desperate for!!
He is waiting, turn to Him, you will feel clean and new,and will never ever be alone again,because Jesus says He " will never leave us or FORSAKE US" he wont, and never will,don't waste anymore time without Him.

positive today

I am feeling a lot more positive today!! I have asked people not to talk about the two that are not in my life, and have blocked them on Facebook so even if i want to i cant find out stuff about them, or let it be used to post nasty comments from one or theirs girlfriends parents about them being the only "good grandparents" or see Mark as a profile picture, showing that he has seen the baby because they have been to his house,so its ended, of course just a ploy of the Enemy because of what is coming up this weekend!

Sad today

I am trying hard not to feel sad today,because i don't have two of my children in my life anymore... most days it doesn't bother me i don't even think about it...its sort of 'Par for the course' to be treated badly by an abuser... but its not something you ever expect from your children, its worse than being beaten or raped for me, the pain is worse, i was a single parent and was there for them every day of their lives when they were children, while their Dad was only around at the weekends, i fed them every day,got them to school, listened to them, cared about them,and both of them have contact with their Dad, even visit him,take their children to see him, but not me.
He was and still, is an Alcoholic,he used to take them to Pubs when he had access time with them,and has had to be pulled back on to he pavement because he was so drunk in charge of them...my daughter believes the lies of the man she saw beat me, my son stole from me and then lied and lied about it,then decided not to speak to me, because i went to the Police, i had 'lost' £1600...too much to just forget about...but with hindsight i would have given it up to not be in this position now..
So now i have two grandchildren i hardly see,so today i am sad... very sad,i don't love them any less , they just don't think i am worth treating well, or respecting,or think enough of me to have me in their kids lives..so i haven't just lost them, but their kids too, they will never come to my house,or know me as just another stranger in a room they never knew...yes i am sad today...

Abusers and enablers

It has been a bit shocking today reading about how people make excuses when confronted by Abusers actions,how women tend to be frozen out of friendships groups because their so called friends refuse to "take sides", (or in my daughters case actually believe lies told about me)....really the conclusion is that "friends" wont believe, or challenge any bad behaviour..so the Abuser gets a free pass,one woman had got drunk and been found by her friend with one of their trusted male friends stroking her arm,she was put to bed in a safe place, but her boyfriend was still inviting the "friend" to social events,he had challenged the friend years before, at High school but the friend had a supposed breakdown, and threatened suicide...Manipulation, years later, the abuser had access to many women through this friendship group, and of course never got challenged again..