Nipper

I should have been paying attention, its OCTOBER..., i was dreading it earlier on in the year, but it crept up without me thinking about it....its always the month that my dogs die, i was so relieved to get through last year. 

Nipper is ill, of course its just annoying because when i dread something bad going to happenit doesn’t it just like to creep up on me!, he hasn’t eaten anything for nearly two day now,he did drink some laps of water yesterday, and licked some butter off my finger,he has diarrhoea, now for two days..but just dribbles from his rear end,he wags his tail, sometimes,i have been reading back to when the others died and it doesn’t seem like there’s much difference here, he has got very skinny over the last month...His Pup Gizmo died in 2018,who was about 14, so he must be 15, not as old as Gizmos Mum, who was 17 and a half when she died, she had had a Mammory strip, because she had cancer,so only had two nipples left,but she survived, and fed her pup,nipper was just a Puppy of about 8 months when he got her pregnant, she had suckled him when he was very small too! But that’s dogs for you!!.. really hope he gets better,but looking back at how the others went it doesn’t look hopeful...weirdest thing is i miss him barking...which he always did when he wasn’t next to me or wanted something,...hated that barking, for the last few months he has started barking at night, when we went to the Caravan in August 14th, he barked at night and i had to sleep with my foot in his dog bed next to me to get any sleep!!

I need to go to the Caravan to close it up for the winter, but i cant really take him for a long journey when he is so ill and obviously its been getting worse for a week or so.....  

Nipper died tonight.