Focus and listening

Its a worrying time for me at the moment, i missed the regional meeting last night,Ben had an "absence" yesterday morning, we had got up early because i was taking my grandchildren out, with Tash and Ben. I saw a program on t.v about sudden death for epileptics, and have resisted researching it until today, i would have rather not known,like an Ostrich sticking my head in the sand!!..Ben has absences, not full blown Seizure's, which make him less likely for sudden death,he is young and male, which can be a risk factor..but the advice was mainly for him to avoid stress, and get plenty of sleep, so i have to decide what to do about that with the Lords help...he has a mobile phone which he has started to use more,does that small screen count a towards the four hours the Neurologist said was the limit for Ben?... it will take me a few days to work through this,hopefully i will allow the Lord to will guide me right, as He always does! i just have to make sure i am listening and not get overwhelmed with the worry of it all, worry for me anyway always seems like Doubt in God..

Conundrums, and disappointments...

i am going through a difficult situation at the moment which has been troubling me since thursday night..a brother in the Lord made a sexual comment, not to me,but in general,( an un-saved person standing next to us had said he was going to "get his d**k out",unpleasant but then one of my christian brothers, a person who is high up in the C.M.A said " i think i'll get mine out too", then a woman, also a christian, who i like said,looking at me," well if he's going to get it out i am going to look" hopefully meaning the first guy!!...) I am at a loss to know what to do and think, maybe it was a test...maybe bikers, even Christians, talk like this!!i don't, and i hope i am not a prude, but i don't believe that sort of talk should come out of a believers mouth,i always try to talk and act as i would if the Lord was standing right beside me...I wouldn't choose to be friends with a person who talks like that,should i sit under their ministry? the woman is a worship leader at the Biker Church, how can i respect her any more? The man is one of the people who runs the Biker Church.What do i do?....

Bumps in the night..

What a night! i have woken up with a headache,first of all the large aluminium stepladder which was standing at the top of the stairs fell over when i was fast asleep, i struggled out of bed to pick it up and Ben said "Suki knocked it over" i am not convinced though,he has walked past it many times!... will be reading the book of Nahum out loud in a few minutes, (someone i know told me it is a spiritual warfare book in the Bible).For a few days now there have been noises in the Kitchen, when no one has been in there, so i guess i should have dealt with this before... i have been having vile dreams for a few days as well which is never a good sign!!
When i came back from the Praise meeting on Saturday night there was a terrible smell in the kitchen,right by the back door,that end of the house always have had a lot of Enemy activity..we live in an English terraced house, three rooms long,with four rooms on the next floor, and an attic room on the third floor.Above the kitchen at the end of the house are two rooms, a bedroom and a bathroom,when i first moved in and for a few years after that i would hear a loud noise in the kitchen, like a huge Metallic object had been dropped,and in the bedroom above when my kids have slept in there things have happened,as a child Nathan was convinced aliens were coming through the window,and when Joe slept in there he saw things outside,(i am not going to say what because i don't want to give the enemy any credit for anything)....!
Even the next door Neighbour told me once that he had seen his back door handle rattling with no one outside, (it is a glass door, so he could have seen a person there!!).The Lord has allowed me to see somethings that have happened in the spot where my house is, which has helped me to pray against the Enemies works. Praise Him!!

B.M.F, and Cody.

I had a pretty rough weekend,we had Joe's dog,Cody for almost six days,he kept Suki in order as he is still a puppy,i made a mistake when we were having a Chinese meal, i put the paper from the top of the container on the table, Suki grabbed it and Cody objected as he is really dominant about food,and attacked poor Suki. He has a cut on his chin, his eye was bleeding, and it is now infected!! that's dogs for you, just a second of not paying attention!! my fault.
I couldn't go to the Biker church as Mike wasn't able to come, and Cody tends to be very loud(he howls!),i had to move the car because the road is being resurfaced, Ben was up but Cody still cried and howled when i was out!! But the good news is we did the B.M.F national road rally, with 270 bikers going through the checkpoint we manned, Chris and Clare were not able to be there,as they had just started their new job, and as it was their 'baby'their idea! but we all managed! Praise God!! I know that some of the aggro that is being thrown at me is because i am now doing the Prayer co-ordination for the local C.m.a.but we all know what will happen to the Enemy at the end of this age! there is a lake of fire waiting for him, and his Servants!