Helen's gone home, to be with her Lord.

Helen died on Tuesday,Brian was with her,he rang me and said she just stopped breathing, the vile disease finally got to her lungs.I wasnt too upset apart from one cry after i had finished speaking to Brian, but the next day i felt quite tearful.

Alice

Tash has had the baby, born on the 5th, very fast too! Both are doing fine,and she will be going home today, it's a wonderful answer to prayer for our miracle baby.I was very anxious,but tried to give it to God,i was with her for few hours while Paul had to go home and do some stuff,i felt much better being there with her, we sat by the doors to the outside because it was so hot in there and had a lovely hot chocolate to drink,new parents were going past with their new babies, taking them home, and as she had been induced three times, she was getting to the point of saying, " that's never going to be me"

Helen in the hospice

Helen has gone into a Hospice,...it a place for end of life care...but I don't want to talk about that...God is still able to heal her,so I am giving it all over to Him,everything else which is going on seems to pail into significance compared to Brian and Helens life now...their daughter Joanna is due to have a baby on 12th December,just 10days after Tash...she was rushed into hospital four days ago with chest pains,they are still doing tests,she could have a blood clot,or pneumonia...I had the enviable task of informing everyone about thirty people about the situation,by email...

"Don't go in a taxi with"

Its a depressing time, being the mum of two daughters and the grandmother of nearly four grand-daughters,my gorls are older, so are not so vulnerable but I am honestly scared of the world my grand-daughters will grow up in...because predators single out young women and. Feel entitled to their bodies,they know how to shame, bully but mostly manipulate young innocent/vulnerable women.

Wet and windy welsh hillside

I am here again sitting in the caravan, on a cold wet and windy Welsh hillside! But I don't mind that, it's just so good to be away from Those same four walls! Ben has been going to a sports thing on a Tuesday morning where his friend from school, Chris has started going,he hates it but it's good for him to get out, and hopefully if he will stay on his own it will give me a few hours break from him,there is a coffee morning at the Church on the same morning, and I do like to go, so does Darren, so I will keep persevering.
I am sitting here in the caravan, and I can see the mountains to the left, covered in mist,some have almost disappeared into the mist,and When I look to my right there is the rest of the side of the mountain we are on,we are at the top, if I could see straight in front of me I could see the Sea, as we are less that half a mile from the beach, I think we are at the top edge of Cardigan bay so Ireland will be the next land, before we get to the Atlantic..it is so beautiful here, stunning really.

36 years of being a Mum

I have had a few minor attacks from the enemy, nothing really that is worth sharing,we managed to get to the caravan for a few days, which was lovely, Ben is going to a sports thing which his friend from school Chris is going to as well, so he seemed to like that,he says he wont go next time,but he will probably change his mind.
I have started to have my hair down, instead of tied up,first time since i started having children,36 years ago,i dont know whether it looks good or not, but i like it so that is all that matters!
I have lost some weight at the gym, in the three months i have been going, but more important a few inches off my waist!
I have missed Church a lot over the summer months, because of the Biker show events and going to the caravan,so i am hoping to go more now,it always is a blessing to me.Helen is getting weak now,but thats another Forrest Gump thing, "thats all i am saying about that".

Motives, and Madness

We had a great time at the biker church 7th anniversary, I went with Brian and his friend Rob, Mike was there with Eddie and some of the people from the prayer group he has at his house,the woman went forward and said that she had got more Love there than any other Church she has been too... then went down in "the Spirit", which in general I am not totally convinced by, as a lot of the women I have seen it happen to have been very much attention seekers, I am so "spiritual", you can almost tell the ones who will go down, (and men), I have seen the daughter of the scam artist claim to have received "Salvation" at least twice!!!
Men do it too,Mike has to come out with psalms, or his old lemon,"we are standing on holy ground"with him it IS showing off, as someone else said about him, it's the same psalm,139,and the same song for at least 15 years, why hasn't he grown in the Spirit since then?
I have been wondering recently if mentally Ill people can be really born again? I don't believe the Lord would let the go to the bad place when they die,but the Pastor called Frank once said that "You are just talking to the illness"interesting remark(about talking about and witnessing about the Lord),it's a shame.
Mike has got the Prayer meetings in his house he has always wanted,but just like when me and Darren and a few others we knew would meet as his house, he soon got sick of it when the scammer asked him to pick up her daughter,he could hardly get us out of the house fast enough!
I was reading up about my Gift Discernment, one writer said it would allow us to see others intentions,why people do things,and somewhere else I saw, it said Women who are beaten, learn to read body language really well, as it can save our lives...it saved my Life, and I will be forever grateful to Him, for saving my life.