Today

Today I got up and went to church,I was a bit late but nobody seems to mind,I can do stuff like that now because Joe has been staying here,so I can go out at a moment notice if I want too! It’s quite unusual for me...for the last two days I have been feeling in a better mood,so I actually smiled at the woman across the road, which surprised her...I go through phases like this, when I can’t speak to people and hate to go out of the house.
The woman preaching, (talking),was about hidden things in the Church, she had noticed that a woman was not coming to church,and bumped into her in town and saw she had a black eye, and was wearing a scarf to cover up other bruises...so the preacher said we must not be too legalistic about what the Bible says about divorce, because we don’t know what is going on in other people’s lives. This was the first time I have ever heard this spoken about in a Church EVER, a bit disappointing that it had to be a woman saying it, a woman I was talking to said she was given some tickets for a circus, by women’s Aid,and when I came home and told Joe he said she is not the sort of woman who would be abused and she was lying...so that made me think a lot.
Joe heard some disturbing news about his Ex,about her Dad,and it got him upset for a while,I got Cody a new Bed, cushion, which he started to tear up!..Suki ran off with Joes smelly sock,he likes to chew them up,Joe tried to get it off him and Suki growled at him, so Cody tried to go for Suki,Joe was in between them trying to keep them apart...so I got out the food bowls which distracts them...dogs are so easy to distract.
So that’s what I have done today.. I read a post where I said everything I had done that day, which is boring for me to do today, but I got a lot of insight into things that have changed, so I am going to do this ’Day in the life’ thing again.

Nipper and Gizmo

It’s 1.30am, and I am wide awake, I am in bed, and I have a fluffy dog bed on the floor next to me with two elderly Yorkshire terriers in it,Nipper the older one,is 14yrs old, his front legs don’t work,for the last 3or four years,he is blind,he still warns if someone comes to the door, and loves a fight with the young Yorkie spike.
Gizmo is in the bed next to him, she is his pup,and only about 8months older, she has had some vomiting on and off for about a week,the day before yesterday, for no reason, completely out of the blue,he had very laboured breathing,which got better over the day, I think she inhaled some vomit,she is blind from cataracts, and almost deaf.
So I don’t know what is going to happen, I hope Gizmo is ok,Spike has had the same virus type thing too, in the last few days,but he seems ok,but obviously is younger, so able to shake stuff off easier..theses dogs have been faithful companions for 13and14 years, the least they deserve now is to be taken care of until they are taken home to heaven.

The purge...

It's been a strange day today,it's been a purging day in this house,..I have Challenged my Ex Jon (Mulcahy), (see my previous post with his name in it!) He was saying on Facebook that I stopped him seeing his kids, when in fact he saw them every Sunday at his parents house, I have plenty of witnesses to that!including his own family!! Of course abusive people do tell lies about their Victims, and I know most of the lies him and Howard Seymour Shellard tell about me,in private to mutual friends, because they are cowards,and know nothing can be done about Lies told in Private, but to Publicly lie about me? And to have the evidence out there in Public!, BAD MISTAKE,!!!.. reminds me of Julia Roberts in that film when she goes back into a shop and goes up to the Shop Assitant who previously refused to serve her, she was in Prostitutes clothing, she went in with all her expensive new clothes, and bags from expensive shops and said, "you refused to serve me yesterday, you work on commission don't you,BIG MISTAKE!!" Wonderful! It was Pretty woman film,just remembered!
So Joe has finally challenged Daisy on her abuse of him,talking over him, taking the kids hundreds of miles away, and only letting him see them if he is in a relationship with her...it's sad because it's Ellie's fourth birthday today, and none of us can see her...or give her her birthday presents, or even be there because it's also her first day of school.. she even admitted she had ruined Ellie's birthday.. but it won't last long...she is sending photos of her own sad face, she has lost control and is panicking, but she chose this,it's her life... but she won't take responsibility for long like most abusers, it will soon be someone else's fault...it's a sad situation, for the kids and Joe. ..He has told her he can't be her counsellor anymore,while she is lying about him to her family, calling him the Abuser...She has admitted she made him ill by her anger tantrums, having him walking on egg shells to keep her from losing her temper....sad sad sad....no ones the winner in this... most of all those wonderful little Girls...

A Rollercoaster Ride,with Jesus in control.

It's been a rollercoaster for the last few weeks,the Enemy has been trying to destroy my family, but I am not worried, well not for long anyway as I know the The Lord is in control of my life and my family, so I have had to give up any sense of control, that anything I do will change anything,Joe has not been taking his medicines, so has been through a rough time,he has smashed windows, been vile and abusive, and tried to hang himself...but The Lord saved his life, and saved Daisy's life when on the full moon, red moon night she was attacked,I am not going to give the Enemy any Glory by going into any more details than that, some people have said that they "don't know how I get through these bad things that happen", and that they know it's because I have Jesus in my life!

Yes and Amen

It's quite strange, I have had over 100views of this blog this morning, and today is only 6hours old! Very welcome for anyone to read this, it would not be public if it wasn't! I am curious why people from over 15countries decided to view this in just the last 6 hours,it's not interesting or dramatic, or salacious! It's been quite a week here,we have been arranging to run something in August for a local charity.
The enemy has been trying to undermine, and frustrate my work for the Lord, but GLory to God, and with His help,the Lord always had the victory, the best thing to happen is that Joe has been convicted by the Holy Spirit and is intending to go to a Christian lunch meeting at a Churchwe used to go to when he was a child,with a new very loving and caring Pastor, in fact the Church that God used to bring me back to Him he wasn't baptised by them,because they thought he was too young,but I did it in the bath, in fact 3 of the children made a commitment at the same time,i remember the urgency the Lord instilled me with to do that, I asked all of them,and as I had come out of the Church and didn't know any Christian Pastors, or even Christian Brothers to do it, I did it myself, and the Lord gave me a few words for him, and that one day he would be a preacher! Which to be honest seemed very far away as he had gone back into the world!
It seems like Gods promise is being fulfilled...it says in the bible that"His promises are yes and Amen"..
I am still very stunned by this...as I always am when God moves in my life...but He proves to me over and over that He is Lord, over me my life, and my children's life..Glory to God, He is Good, ALL the time!!!

60 and counting!

Well the day I was dreading has come and gone, with no lasting effects!Tash got me tickets to see the Rolling Stones in concert, which was wonderful! The best birthday present I have ever had, in fact the best present I have ever had! its been a very stressful 3 months which I haven't really been able to talk about, not at the branch meeting, or to ask for prayer from the fast track which is a nationwide prayer set up from the Christian Motorcyclists Association.Brian has 'moved on', has met a lovely woman called Lidia,I actually haven't met her yet, but everyone who has says she is lovely. I have been asked to run a local event here in Shropshire so I am still organising that.The house is getting sorted out,I have started some oil paintings, and apart from Joe suffering from missing the children, life is very good, which I know is an awful thing to say,not just for Joes sake, but because I am feeling good because things are good,I have had some of the darkest times in my life in the last three months,and as everyone who reads this blog will know I have had some really awful things happen to me,but it's so much worse when you see your children go through pain, the blessing I have had is that Joe said despite everything he says he 'can still feel God', which I know will make our Enemy furious, but I know God is in control! God is good, And the people said ALL THE TIME!

6 minutes to 60

60. Wow so ancient, in six minutes, now three minutes I will be 60.. a big age to be....