Garage Praise and Biker Breakfasts!

Its been an exciting few days,on thursday at the Prospects service at the church the woman running it told me about a Praise meeting in a Garage! i was a bit dubious but told Mike about it anyway and he was keen to go, so we went on friday,it was closed and we went round the whole town trying to find it, we were disappointed,the next day Sandra met a preacher she knows slightly, who told her the meeting was on that night and he was on his was there,we had been told the wrong night!! the Preacher never came, but he was sent by God so we would be there!!!. It was a wonderful blessed evening, and we were all encouraged by the wonderful touch the Lord gave us that night! and what was so remarkable was that it really seemed as if God wanted us there!! so amazing!! Yesterday was the 'big breakfast',a large biker event that happens every year,we were volunteering to do the side stall for Drinks and snacks,while Lynn the owner served the breakfasts, the queue was almost out the door there were so many people there, very tiring but wonderful to serve!!!

Family news,and a step forward for me.

Well here i am its nearly 2.am and i am wide awake!!....i have not been sleeping well for about four weeks,it was getting better until the incidence last week with Ben and the guys in the street.We have finally got Nathans car sorted out today,Mikes had it on his drive for three weeks and when we went to take it away after finally getting the insurance and road tax sorted, it wouldnt start so Mike has charged the battery,so we are going to bring it back here and leave it on Tashys road, just a few streets away tommorow! Tashy should be moving soon, they have bought a house in the country with some land, the house needs doing up,which Paul and his Dad have started.Joe is worrying me at the moment,but more about that at another time.Of course with my sleepless nights have coincided almost exactly with me starting to get out of the house more and being with other Christians! seems the Enemy of our souls is not happy!... Something so mundane and ordinary as going to a sort of Coffee morning with a lot of Elderly people,but quite a few Christians too!.(which Brian the Chairman of the Local christian motorcyclist association told me about in his church),and had been encouraging me to go to for a few weeks,where a lot of the people from the disabled home built at the back of the church go to as well, has been wonderful to go to!and Ben and Darren have gone too! one afternoon in the week they have a 'Prospects' service for the Home,York House,( a home started by the church for handicapped people) and the first time i went for the coffee morning we were invited to that and have been twice!! So me being me and limiting God had thought that it was just the Biker Church that God had wanted me to be involved in....but He has other ideas!! Praise Him.

Blank mind!!!..

Last night i had a great ide about what i was going to say today, just cant remember what it was!! usually when i look at the blank page i have a small 'nudge' from the Holy Spirit, and it just flows out, it not me though i claim no glory though, its not me! No nudges so far...so i will just say what has been happening the last few days, we have had a lot of air polution over england, wednesday and thursday,so my Asthma was not good,so i watched Ben go up to the car to get the coke out,usually i go too and take the dogs,he was in my sight all the time when i saw two Men cross over as he came back i started running,not fast, as i cant run...i did nt get there in time and the had started verbally abusing him...he would not tell me what was said, but a young woman who was walking down the other side,heard it all, i gave them a 'telling off' as we say in England, and one of them apologised.....we told the Police.Ben does not seem too upset, just annoyed he didn't punch them! so i suppose understandably i have been having some bad dreams... I have been staying in the house since then,but i am going out today, and its Biker church tonight, which i always look forward too!

Vintage Motorcycle Show.

It went well on Sunday, i was able to tell a woman my testimony and how God has brought me through, i hope i have sown some good seeds there,or rather the Lord has used me for His purpose!I have taken Ben and Darren to a coffee morning and we are going to a special service at the same church this afternoon for Mentally handicapped people,, it was really great to meet a lady there who i had not seen for 30 yrs and she remembered me too,on Sunday at the local Bike show a woman remembered me from a Bikers Pub 30 yrs ago, she goes to the same church too now as well,its a small world!..Brian even went to the same Pub at the same time too, but in the Bar we were in the loungue, because Marks brother went in the Bar, and he didn't want to be where his younger brother was!

New Chapters,and obedience

I am struggling at the moment, the Enemy is having a 'go' as we say here in the U.k,the last week i have not been sleeping even though i am tired,it first began when i didn't spray round the boundary before the full moon, if i don't i am guaranteed a sleeples night, but this has been a sleepless week!..Dr Rebbecca brown who wrote the book 'He came to set the captives free' 'standing on the rock'and other books,is very hepful to me about the enemies tactics, and how he attacks Believers, and trys to Hnder the Lords work, I think i know why i am the subject of this present attack,I am going to my first bike show tommorow,i dont expect to bring people to the Lord, or do any great things,but i do know that this is the direction the Lord wants me to go in,and i persoanally have wanted this myself for years...
Brian the chairman of the local Christian motorcycle Association,has known Mike for years, and last year had been thinking about him one sunday, on his way to church,Mike had asked me to look on the Internet for a church that did a service on Sunday Night, and not many do now,the only one that does just happened to be the one that Brian had been going to for years, He walked in and there was Mike!!..(Mike and i had fallen out for about a year, but to be truely honest i was upset with him, about choosing the Ex, Howard over me,and had not talked to Him for over 7 months, and of course the whole scam artist thing, which as we know ended very badly for Mike,and i suppose i was angry with him because he would not listen to my warning about her, and i had called him a 'Mug'...which i had to apologise to him about....So in Gods timing it was all sorted out, i had to be obedient, apologise,and be the connection for Mike to be there,God spoke to Brian's heart about Mike, and now after all the trauma of the Ex husband stalker, Howard. God has brought us into a new chapter in my life.Praise Him! I am nothing special,God will do this for anyone, He desires to work in all our lives

sleepy, and examining my motives!

I am feeling a sense of vague unease at the moment, it feels as if something is looming, i have had a few bad dreams,sleeplesness,and my 'spiritual discernment' is affected,my 'spidey sense'!!..,(it is officially called the gift of 'discernment of spirits',which the Bible doesn't say a lot about,but in essence means being able to tell the difference between good and bad spirits).From lunchtime on tueasday until 8.30 wednesday morning i was sleeping, not solidly of course as i still have Ben to care for!! but dosing...i wasnt tired, and had slept well the night before.. its all very strange,in her books Dr Rebbeca Brown says that sometimes we are tired because we have been fighting spiritual battles,or at least our spirit/soul has! I don't want to overthink all this, it could be just that i have been resisting some trap of Sin the enemy has set up for me!!, i know my post the other day about my relative (sister) may have seemed sinful, maybe it was, i know i have forgiven her,its just her behaviour that puzzles me, and maybe the criticism could come that because i am not in contact with her at all that i am holding a grudge,I am not i believe the Bible does allow us to cut those out of our lives who would cause us to Sin,after a long life of painful,useless arguments i know it leads no-where and will no longer engage with those people who like to argue,i still love her, i can't help it!.. and would wish her health and happiness, but i am done with Controlling, dominating personalities!!(avoiding them like the plague, is not an understatemnt!!!)

Hyenas,or flying monkeys?...Or MORE BOMBASTIC BULLYING?

I have just been checking up on the internet on the 'bombastic bully', unfortunately a relative of mine,its all very discouraging, she hasn't changed!!,she is very 'big' on twitter,where no-one is allowed to disagree with her, if they even try to use the 'free speech' she would as a bleeding heart liberal say SHE believes in, she gets her pack of fellow bullies, to attack mercilessly...(the flying monkeys)...its all very discouraging,i have spent so long praying for her,(and sadly she has only come out as an Athiest since she failed to control me)!!.. What is most laughable to me of course is she SAYS she is AGAINST bullying!!!hypocrite!! I have commented on twitter as myself,and she has stopped anyone attacking me by telling them our genetic link,and of course saying because i am 'mentally disabled'(her words! or on the spectrum) and 'i should not be attacked", really frustrating...so i went on twitter with a false identity, and merely said "NICKY CLARK does not speak for me" just that!.., i then had her minions dissect ever word i had ever written, disparaging my use of language etc!!she re-posted my tweets for her pack of hyenas to rip apart!! hilarious!!!,but very bullying behaviour from a disability rights activist!!, in fact she is just a bored housewife with a laptop, she's never gone on marches! or put herself in any difficult situations...some activist!!!i am ashamed to say she is a vicious controlling person with a platform,and people who claim to 'know her',who don't...i do only too well...'one of the hyenas even said to me' as my false identity,"if you really know her you would not say that" Un-fortunately the Trouble is i DO know her,all her life,we grew up together,and i so wonder what made her this vicious person?.., who 'cares so much' for strangers, but shuns and mistreats her own family?..,I know my Mum would have hated the way she treats others and the thing she accuses my Dad of SHE has become!!....its all very troubling.....i pray for her every night to come to salvation,and i try not to be unforgiving, even though she was cruel to Ben, and to a lesser degree my other children.I know God is in this,maybe one day my Mums ashes can be buried where she wanted them to be, but she is waiting for my apology...and holding the Ashes hostage until she gets her own way.She has a lot of the traits of the pyscopath, uncaring of others,who will tread on any one to get her own way..so sad,God forgive her.