I DEPEND ON HIM

Today i am Grateful to God, because' He never leaves me or forsakes Me'!!. I have been reading my Diary, because Helen and Brian who run the Local branch of the C.M.A,( christian motorcycle association), have asked me to give my testimony at the next meeting,i have always rather Arrogantly thought that although i went to Church then, i was not really born-again, as are a lot of people who attend Church here in England. The Church of England does not say we have to be born-again to be saved,but my diary tells a very different story, when i was 15 i was really committed to God, but 'boys' got in the way, and i did not fully commit my life back to Him until i was 35,i know now that He did not leave me,but when i was bringing up my five children on my own, without any help from anyone, i really did feel alone,The Bible says He will never Leave us or forsake us', and one very Painful night He took me through every Instance of Abuse i could remember and said 'you were that frightened child,and woman,who had to depend on a father who beat you,and a Husband who beat and Raped you,but YOU WERE NEVER ALONE,I WAS ALWAYS THERE.'.Thank you Jesus.

Bringing Captive every thought

Today I am grateful to God because He is Sovereign, over our Lives and Sovereign over the World, its been an interesting week, the Biker church was inspiring as usual, led by our 'Twig', the of shoot of a Branch!, maybe we will grow to branch one day! Its up to the Lord.
My Blind friend Andre came up for a few days too,it was such a blessing to see Him, and we have spent a long time talking since then, its good to be back in full fellowship with Him,some minor problems,(Scammer trying to mess with Andre's romantic feelings, "you can give me what my husband cant"), which the Enemy meant for bad God has turned around for good, in fact i am very grateful for the 'problems'! thank you Lord! Praise Him!
Its usual for the Enemy to have a 'go' at us after the blessings we have at Biker church,the first time Sandra and I were under attack for a whole week!...God is so good to us, Hallelujah.
I have been sharing with Andre some of the lessons God has taught me recently,about bringing Captive every thought, where we could be driven to Judge others,being Angry in itself is not Sin, but it can lead us into Sin.

'Got our backs'

Today i am grateful to God, because Mike is back to his usual self!! Praise God! And Pete our old friend has been in touch, and wants to come to the next Biker church with us! I have been without T.V last night,only until later today but i got on with doing other stuff,which really does show me that i watch too much t.v,its just another excuse not to do the things i should! My Old friend Sue has been coming to clean for me, which has encouraged me too! So not very interesting news,this is probably why i don't blog every day!!! but it is good news about Mike,its going to be strange for me to be involved with a group of Christians,and be under someones authority, but i know that God has done this, so i trust Him to have me in the right place, and have my back, both Mike and i have not really had a church to call home, its almost as if the Lord has planned this!...Did He plan that Mike would get offended at his last Church and leave? Did He plan that my Ex would start to go to the church i have been to for 15yrs? No, but He knows Men's hearts and knows the outcome of every offence, and turns it round for our good" Praise Him!!

Change in Ben

Today i am grateful to God for?... almost a year of posts being' grateful,'! first of all!! next i am really really grateful that there has been a change in Ben for the better, he is eating more, three times as much, not swearing profanities at me, and is generally Happy!
 What i always forget is that He is the Barometer, every time i take a significant step nearer to God Ben improves!!...i am getting involved with the Christian Motorcyclist Association here in England, something which i have wanted to do for ages,now its happened! Praise Him.
I don't really know how He can use me in this, when i first spoke to Brian, the chairman,He said i could witness on the stands at Bike shows,and not to be 'offensive, i look the part' (biker waistcoat and Tshirt') i felt an immediate Joy in my heart, that i had a ministry!!! just like that.....God is so amazing, so this weekend God willing i am going to do the Cardboard testimony.
Mike is worrying me again, he has gone very quiet,just not himself.

'its a wonderful world'

today i am grateful to God, for the beauty of the Natural world around us, and how being in it brings His Peace to my Soul, at the caravan yesterday and to watch rabbits run around at 6.30am,the local crows, and swallows, even the bats, not this year though because they have cut the tops out of the trees where they roost.God has made us a beautiful World, in fact it was Jesus who Created this wonderful world for us to enjoy, and then we were made from the Dust, that explains the connection we have, He made us from the very Earth we walk on......Praise Him

blessing the inconsiderate Jerks

Today I am grateful to God for the Patience of the 'Saints', namely our friend Eddy, unjustly in Prison,he is an example to me.
We went to see him in Prison, quite an 'eye-opening' experience,it was a very long drive,(two and three quarter hours),and a sobering experience, to have every door locked after us,any one who reads this please pray for him,his sentence is unjust, as he has served well over his time for his original crime.(he set fire to his council house,and even the European court of Human rights has said his type of open ended sentence is unjust)
I am praying every day for my neighbours who really are inconsiderate jerks! but nothing will change if i have an unforgiving , angry, attitude to them! i am asking the Lord to save them, on Friday night i went through every person i could possibly be holding unforgiveness to, and was really surprised at the reaction to that, i felt myself being delivered of several things!! Praise God,and the best part,my reaction to sin against me would sometimes take days to get 'past', this time because it was given to Him, i have got past it already, every time unforgiving thoughts come to me, i pray blessings on both sides.....its absolutely AMAZING, the Word of God says 'to take every thought captive', and bring to God,He really does help us to deal with anger and unforgiveness!!...Praise Him

ON NOTICE.

To all the, Name callers,Punchers, shovers,abusers, rapists

YOU are on NOTICE.

We are not taking it ANY MORE.

ALL we did was love you ,...UNCONDITIONALLY.....And    forgive.

AND TO REPAY THAT LOVE??.. we had

Punches

shoves

hurt kids

YOU called us

UGLY

FAT

USELESS

bad mother

WOTHLESS

    WE DESERVED BETTER.....WE DEMAND BETTER

WE ARE TOO GOOD FOR YOU,

WE NAME YOU;
 
 WE CLAIM OUR LIVES BACK...

    OUR LIVES, NOT YOURS TO CONTROL ...OURS OURS OURS

WE BELONG TO NO-ONE, EXCEPT GOD.

NOW..

I CAN SHUT MY DOOR,and keep YOU OUT

I EAT WHEN I WANT,

I SLEEP, IN PEACE

I USE MY OWN MIND TO MAKE MY CHOICES.

I SURVIVED, NOW I CAN


                     LIVE


WE CAN BE


   MOTHERS

  GRANDMOTHERS

  LYDIA'S, THE DEBORAH'S, THAT GOD MADE US TO BE.