Old friends we missed...

Today i am really grateful to God because I was able to meet up with an old friend from years ago who has been out of fellowship with us, ( me and Mike) for 8 years, we have been praying for Him over the Years,which he said He could feel when he was sometimes at His lowest! Praise God it was really encouraging to know this...i uses to have a meeting at my house twice a week up til about 2004,sometimes we had up to 12 people, which is quite a lot for a small terraced house!!....seems a long time ago now...Praise God Pete is o.k, though not un-scathed by life, the Universe and everything!!!!....

pre...post ...or mid tribulation?

I am grateful to God today for,His Holy Spirit,how He guides us, comforts and encourages us,i am still learning about Him,and how He is an equal part of the Trinity,in a way a more Mysterious Person then the Father and the Son, their function are in Their Names,Elizabeth once said that He is the One who is left on Earth,and that He did not come until after Jesus had left because only one Part of the Holy Trinity could be on the Earth at a time,it was something to do with the end time tribulation,maybe because when Jesus returns to the mount of Olives,the Body of Christ,with The Holy Spirit, could not be here,we would have left!!.., PRE-tribulation beliefs,not sure what i believe, but like most people would not want to go through the Tribulation!!...
i did not make it to the Caravan,i don't now why really!..i have been able out sort out the garden, and finally learn how to use my new 'smart phone'....i have taken it back to the shop twice saying it was Broken!!..both times leaving feeling ridiculous because i was doing something wrong.....

Bikers church 2

Today i am grateful to God for Terry Loving,the Woman who has the Website ' Spiritual side of domestic Violence', she has done an Article about the effects on children of domestic violence,and i have shared too,very painful, she shares her life as a child going through these things.
I hope it helps others who are going through it now.
Another day of not being able to go to the caravan,the 'runs' this time....still there is always tomorrow!!
Went to the Bikers church,absolutely wonderful, really really blessed,the Holy Spirit was there, Praise Him!
I came away a bit discouraged,wondering how God can use me in the church, or to Bikers? He has a plan, just wish He would let me in on it!!!
I also felt while i was there and listening to an Old lady give some of her testimony, that i would be up there giving Mine!!! quite a shock, never really been asked for my testimony!! i have given parts of it a few times, so i have been going through it with the Lord over the past few days, even if i am never asked, it has really shown me how much i have to thank Him for!!!...

Judgemental.

Today i am grateful to God, for the many blessings He gives us, i was watching David Pawson, a Christian teacher, who was saying the God is not the loving God to all, as some people say,in fact He only LOVES the righteous, those who believe in Him, have repented and try to live right afterwards, And that those who say how could a Loving God....let humans die in horrific bomb blasts,allow child abuse,or any Innocents suffer? are in fact NOT reading the Bible properly, because tells His servants to wipe out whole races in the Old Testament....
He held up His Bible showing the front edge,'does it have finger marks right across' he said! ( which of course means that we should be reading the whole Bible and not just the New Testament, He is the same God after all, was His point, although some believers don't acknowledge that , i think i said before that a Pastor in this town speaking in a debate about Homosexuality,said that the prohibition was the old 'Mosiac Law' (Moses and the Ten commandments), as if somehow that was less Valid!... and of course we all know that Sodomy was condemned in the new testament too, in fact equated on the same level as Bestiality..
I am not one of those believers who would condemn anyone, I am a Sinner too,in fact as i have said before i knew a wonderful Lesbian called Michelle, who was more Christ like than many of the Christian i knew at the time....
The Willow tree has gone, cut right down to the ground, from being a 20-20 foot tree, overshadowing mine and the neighbours gardens,felt a bit bad about it, but as my garden is only 15 feet wide, and about 30 feet long it was unmanageable, i can get the rest of it cleared now,exciting!
I am hoping to make it to to Bikers church today,God willing,which is the only church i cant wait for, i have to force myself to go to any other church, although the Bible does not say 'thou shalt attend a church every Sunday and be bored solid during a 'sermon', It does say in fact, 'do not neglect the GATHERING together' which i don't, and to be Honest i don't really believe in the modern model of church, after reading the excellent book by Bob Tench,called i think, 'Gods City',
He talks about a Man not unlike Pilgrims progress, who is looking for the City of God, Abraham did too if i remember correctly,He finds what He at first considers to be Gods City, but feels unsatisfied,so goes on in His journey.Bobs point being of course that we are never really satisfied in 'Churchianity' if we are seeking God,He even goes on to say, we cant find God there, because He isn't there!!!...
He believes that the true model of church is as the early church was, meeting in homes, everyone feeling free to share,'one would bring a Psalm,one a word', and 'a little child shall lead them' most kids are separated, from the main body of people,He says that when the Emperor Constantine,became a believer, He kicked out the Pagans, and the temples were handed over to the Believers,so church became the same set out as school, and only one person can contribute.
Of course i have had some bad experiences in Church, so anyone reading this could say 'well my church isn't like that, we feel genuinely cared for by the Pastor, and our brothers and Sister, we can share our heart in the meetings',that's fine of course, but my experience is that unless you are a VERY forceful personality, who will share, despite others, (Like Mike, God bless Him)!!! we come away from church , not feeling like its satisfying,and our need to share too not met.

More Patience please

Today i am grateful to God because He gives me the ability to deal with difficult people,to have patience,and although sometimes these annoying people do try my patience and i bite back, He still forgives me!
i had a rather disturbing dream about my Ex last night, despite trying to think the other day that i hardly ever dreamt about him,!! i was doing various things surrounded by a group of people who were physically very close to me and someone was touching my thigh area,but so many people were pressed up against me, that i did not notice, but later i knew it was him, he was getting closer in each part of the dream until he was almost in my face,he had started being very unobtrusive,until i shouted at him to get away,i was not scared or even annoyed by him, being so obvious!!!...Maybe God was telling me that he really is just not part of my life anymore,and i don't have to worry, and whatever he thinks or believes, its his problem, just because i am the object of his obsession,its not my problem!!!

Pharisee,- or ashamed of the Gospel?

Today i am grateful to God, because He died for me,He loves us so much,that's why He did it, so we don't have to pay the price for our sin,Praise Him, i had yet another sleepless night, the night before last,seems it just something i have to put up with, part of life i guess!!I was reading last night from MATHEW 22.Jesus was talking about the Pharisees, and how they put burdens on others,yet not on themselves, the part which stood out most to me was where He condemns the 'scribes and Pharisees', i was just wondering who the modern day Pharisees were, Pharisees were Priests in Biblical times,i suppose its too easy to point the finger at church leaders, and some do seem keen on the letter of the LAW, and not the SPIRIT,at the time it happened i thought the Pastor who brought me to the Lord was harsh to keep the the BIBLE STRICTLY, ,but now i would do the same!! as far as I can anyway,at the time i would have thought of him as a Pharisee....and yet i have been to churches where the 'difficult' and challenging, things where not talked about, Hell,etc, in fact i even heard the Pastor say 'oh, that's from the old Mosaic law' as if it wasn't relevant!!!

green gardens

Today i am Grateful to God because, He is good,ALL THE TIME,Praise Him!!!this week i have lost my temper, had an elderly driver almost run into me, and if i had not braked she would have, she raised he r hand to say 'thanks, for letting me in'.!!!!......very strange!!, another elderly driver come round a traffic Island, indicating to turn first left, not turn,and stop halfway across the island....all on the same day..IF i was paranoid i would say someone was out to get me, of course I'm not,but just because you are not paranoid doesn't mean they aren't out to get you!!!!....Life is good,i am hoping to go to another Bikers church, next Sunday,God willing,someone is coming to cut down the remainder of the Weeping Willow tree in the back Garden,seems a small thing, but it was so big that it completely shaded my garden and the neighbours too! I am hoping to be able to grow some vegetables, and have already planted some more Hollyhocks!! the wild life pond has a lot of frogspawn too so that's quite interesting, we have very good light soil, ideal growing conditions,but so many slugs and snails that everything that grows is eaten, i have to be careful where i dig though because of the various dogs,six Yorkshire Terriers buried there!!