Today i am grateful that God always gives us the Victory, Praise Him, i have been bugged by the Enemy, over the past few days, most annoying yesterday, also Sandra, who had a very annoying day yesterday, but through what the Enemy did Sandra met a wonderful Saint aged 90, who she is going to read scripture with, and can go and Pray with her! she lives near Sandra,so the Lord could be going to use both of them to pray for the Area, which has some problems!
Praise God, so the Lord has made her fruitful in the Land of her suffering, and i am hoping that will happen with me too! God is so good, i am so glad i am His daughter, and that He chose me, of course it is quite humbling to be chosen, its not through anything good in me though. God is good...and the people said....ALL THE TIME!...
Saturday, 20 October 2012
Thursday, 18 October 2012
Perfect Father
Today i am grateful to God because He is good... all the time! He never lets us down, however bad we are He just forgives and carries on Loving and protecting us,He truely is the Perfect Father. The best thing about being here is Him, Hallelujah.
My life has changed in the last few weeks,i guess the dream the Lord gave me about green pastures is coming true,i thought the other day i would have to give up more of my friends because of the Ex, but it seems to be o.k at the moment, God will guide me if that needs to happen, its been 9 weeks,i have restricted my activities outside the house, so there is nothing really he could do to be around me again!. He still goes to my daughters house, theres nothing i can do about that anymore,he did the best he could to ruin that relationship, and lost.I do still feel very scared and Intimidated by his behaviour, and really hate the fact that it affects where i go, but have to just accept it, one of the counsellors i spoke to about it said when i was angry about giving up the church that i had been going to for 15 yrs, said that it would be hard but my safety must be the most important thing, i should feel safe,one of the last few times i went there i was leaving and the exit was covered by queing people,and he was in the way of the exit, i could not get past, it would seem a small incident to other people, but he knew i was there and was not moving to intimidate me, he is very tall, about 6'3, i am short at 5'3 but wide!!., he knew i was there,. He told me once he knew when he was intimidating people,especially women.I pushed past in the end,went outside but instead of crumpling in a heap, i decided i would not be intimidated and went back in!
My life has changed in the last few weeks,i guess the dream the Lord gave me about green pastures is coming true,i thought the other day i would have to give up more of my friends because of the Ex, but it seems to be o.k at the moment, God will guide me if that needs to happen, its been 9 weeks,i have restricted my activities outside the house, so there is nothing really he could do to be around me again!. He still goes to my daughters house, theres nothing i can do about that anymore,he did the best he could to ruin that relationship, and lost.I do still feel very scared and Intimidated by his behaviour, and really hate the fact that it affects where i go, but have to just accept it, one of the counsellors i spoke to about it said when i was angry about giving up the church that i had been going to for 15 yrs, said that it would be hard but my safety must be the most important thing, i should feel safe,one of the last few times i went there i was leaving and the exit was covered by queing people,and he was in the way of the exit, i could not get past, it would seem a small incident to other people, but he knew i was there and was not moving to intimidate me, he is very tall, about 6'3, i am short at 5'3 but wide!!., he knew i was there,. He told me once he knew when he was intimidating people,especially women.I pushed past in the end,went outside but instead of crumpling in a heap, i decided i would not be intimidated and went back in!
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
The Lord is in control
Today i am grateful to God that we can live in the Victory,He gives us the Victory over the Enemy, we get down, feel overwhelmed, but all we have to do is turn to Him, and we have the Victory, and the'sting' has gone!!
I have a few hard decisions to make,i know that the Lord will guide me right in this,i have worried before how bad situations would work out, but i just have to stand back and let God do it, and He NEVER lets me down, Praise Him!
I am getting over another Virus at the Moment,Ben is not sleeping until 3.30- 4.30am, i have stopped telling him to go to bed earlier,he is an Adult, and i just get shouted at, i used to really worry about not getting enough sleep, even got him some mild sleeping meds from the Doc,but i have had to learn to be easy going about it at the moment,the Lord is giving me the Victory!
My Bible reading this morning has all been on one theme, which is unusual because the are randomly chosen....Revelation, Isiah, the vision of Israels rejection of God, and the Judgement! i have to believe that God is in charge, even over which Bible verses come up randomly!
I have a few hard decisions to make,i know that the Lord will guide me right in this,i have worried before how bad situations would work out, but i just have to stand back and let God do it, and He NEVER lets me down, Praise Him!
I am getting over another Virus at the Moment,Ben is not sleeping until 3.30- 4.30am, i have stopped telling him to go to bed earlier,he is an Adult, and i just get shouted at, i used to really worry about not getting enough sleep, even got him some mild sleeping meds from the Doc,but i have had to learn to be easy going about it at the moment,the Lord is giving me the Victory!
My Bible reading this morning has all been on one theme, which is unusual because the are randomly chosen....Revelation, Isiah, the vision of Israels rejection of God, and the Judgement! i have to believe that God is in charge, even over which Bible verses come up randomly!
Saturday, 13 October 2012
Marmite and the Beatles
Today, i am grateful to God for the Parents He gave me, as with most people, we had our difficult moments,but i could never say that they did not care for us, as they both tried to do their best in their own ways, both very different people, who had different types of parenting, but i am grateful for them both.
If i just concentrate on the early years, and not the later unpleasant times, they come across in my memory as the perfectly ordinary 1960's parents,i remember living in Belfast,my Dad making a dressing table for my Mum,it was a bit of an eyesore,but she seemed to love it! He surprised her with a washing machine,as she had been washing everything in the Bath,not easy with three children, one a baby, they seemed very happy to me then,it was an idyllic time.
In my diary from then i seem to be happy,some friends came to visit with a camper van, i remember eating marmite flavoured sticks, and the girl my age putting the radio on and we listened to the Beatles, first time i had ever heard Pop music.
My Dad would read every night from the 'wind in the Willows' i still have the book, don't think we ever finished it, i read the 'Hobbit' to my two youngest, i didn't finish it either...Mike bit right through his tongue,the Baby would be put outside in the pram, with a cat net over it.
In 1963, i can vividly remember our arrival in London from Kenya, so cold, it must have been oct 4th, it was Mike birthday on the plane,we had to spend the night before at Entebbe airport in Uganda, because the wheels fell off the plane, we had an emergency landing,i was awake, my Mum said don't wake up Mike,when i asked why all the lights were flashing,!!she was very Brave,on her own with two children, as my Dad had gone to London first
.He had skipped out so he didn't have to pay his tax bill!!
I can remember my Dad having a new Blue Ford Escort car,when he brought it home he took all the local kids for a ride in it.We had that car for so long, My Mum learnt to drive in in, and when we moved to Dublin,we were playing on a long beach, while my Mum had driving lessons from Dad, we were really pleased when she drove down the beach on her own to pick us up!!!..I really can't remember much of what my Mum did, out of the ordinary, but she was always there,as all good mums are, i was so consumed in my world, as most children ,she did have a cat which she loved,the bathroom window was left open, and the cat would bring her presents such as headless rabbits, we could not understand how the cat got it through the window, the rabbit was as big as the cat.!!
My Dad always said she loved to 'torment the cat', poking it when it slept! i always think of that when i see my dogs sleeping, and yes i do poke them too! When we lived in Nairobi we had lots of cats, my Mum always used to say that they would sit in a circle around my Highchair waiting for food to drop! Other people we knew had Elephants invade their gardens, so we weren't to badly off with just cats.
If i just concentrate on the early years, and not the later unpleasant times, they come across in my memory as the perfectly ordinary 1960's parents,i remember living in Belfast,my Dad making a dressing table for my Mum,it was a bit of an eyesore,but she seemed to love it! He surprised her with a washing machine,as she had been washing everything in the Bath,not easy with three children, one a baby, they seemed very happy to me then,it was an idyllic time.
In my diary from then i seem to be happy,some friends came to visit with a camper van, i remember eating marmite flavoured sticks, and the girl my age putting the radio on and we listened to the Beatles, first time i had ever heard Pop music.
My Dad would read every night from the 'wind in the Willows' i still have the book, don't think we ever finished it, i read the 'Hobbit' to my two youngest, i didn't finish it either...Mike bit right through his tongue,the Baby would be put outside in the pram, with a cat net over it.
In 1963, i can vividly remember our arrival in London from Kenya, so cold, it must have been oct 4th, it was Mike birthday on the plane,we had to spend the night before at Entebbe airport in Uganda, because the wheels fell off the plane, we had an emergency landing,i was awake, my Mum said don't wake up Mike,when i asked why all the lights were flashing,!!she was very Brave,on her own with two children, as my Dad had gone to London first
.He had skipped out so he didn't have to pay his tax bill!!
I can remember my Dad having a new Blue Ford Escort car,when he brought it home he took all the local kids for a ride in it.We had that car for so long, My Mum learnt to drive in in, and when we moved to Dublin,we were playing on a long beach, while my Mum had driving lessons from Dad, we were really pleased when she drove down the beach on her own to pick us up!!!..I really can't remember much of what my Mum did, out of the ordinary, but she was always there,as all good mums are, i was so consumed in my world, as most children ,she did have a cat which she loved,the bathroom window was left open, and the cat would bring her presents such as headless rabbits, we could not understand how the cat got it through the window, the rabbit was as big as the cat.!!
My Dad always said she loved to 'torment the cat', poking it when it slept! i always think of that when i see my dogs sleeping, and yes i do poke them too! When we lived in Nairobi we had lots of cats, my Mum always used to say that they would sit in a circle around my Highchair waiting for food to drop! Other people we knew had Elephants invade their gardens, so we weren't to badly off with just cats.
Tuesday, 9 October 2012
Wonderful gift
Today i am so grateful to God for my family, my children, we all went out last night for a meal,and the best 4yr old in the world, my grandson Max!, I enjoyed it,my children are a wonderful gift from God. I m very grateful for them.
I really wanted to use it as a time to toast my Mum,did not work out too well, when i made the toast i couldn't think of the words i had prepared!!! So sad....
I can't remember where i heard it from,, but i wrote down ' the Lord rejoices over us with singing when we sleep when we wake we return the Praise back to Him'! Hallelujah
I really wanted to use it as a time to toast my Mum,did not work out too well, when i made the toast i couldn't think of the words i had prepared!!! So sad....
I can't remember where i heard it from,, but i wrote down ' the Lord rejoices over us with singing when we sleep when we wake we return the Praise back to Him'! Hallelujah
Monday, 8 October 2012
To live is Christ
I am grateful to God today for God who rejoices over us with singing, while we sleep,and when we wake we return the Praises back to Him! hallelujah.
I have been stuck in the house a lot more than usual in the last month,which can be very hard, but then i get to the point where i don't want to go out,i fell like because i am not meeting with others too much that i do not have anything to share,and of course He does speak to us through other people, but with me anyway, the Holy Spirit is always trying to teach me, i mostly don't listen as i should, so it has been really great to listen to Him for a change! what have i missed, what a waste of time it is to not listen!, to live is Christ!
I think i said before that the Lord was taking me through everything that happened with my Ex,stuff that i had really forgotten, or just put aside,it was painful,i was looking at some sites about Violent and controlling people, which did help too.
A few other people have said they have felt really tired all day too, so maybe it was some kind of virus or bug,but God used it to help me come to terms with plenty of things well buried!
I was talking to another lady at a prayer meeting, and she said that the Bible says that one particular verse, which said that if an Un-believing Husband leaves His believing wife, she is not bound,so she can marry again,as if she had never been before, my study Bible does say that too, which i cant actually find now!
It was quite a shock as i had always thought that my second marriage was against the Bible, because my first Husband was still alive,my first had been adulterous first. So the next day i did a pretty intensive study, and i found alot to back it up. Since then i have looked again and gone back to my first belief! it may have just been the Enemy,but its quite strange!
I have been stuck in the house a lot more than usual in the last month,which can be very hard, but then i get to the point where i don't want to go out,i fell like because i am not meeting with others too much that i do not have anything to share,and of course He does speak to us through other people, but with me anyway, the Holy Spirit is always trying to teach me, i mostly don't listen as i should, so it has been really great to listen to Him for a change! what have i missed, what a waste of time it is to not listen!, to live is Christ!
I think i said before that the Lord was taking me through everything that happened with my Ex,stuff that i had really forgotten, or just put aside,it was painful,i was looking at some sites about Violent and controlling people, which did help too.
A few other people have said they have felt really tired all day too, so maybe it was some kind of virus or bug,but God used it to help me come to terms with plenty of things well buried!
I was talking to another lady at a prayer meeting, and she said that the Bible says that one particular verse, which said that if an Un-believing Husband leaves His believing wife, she is not bound,so she can marry again,as if she had never been before, my study Bible does say that too, which i cant actually find now!
It was quite a shock as i had always thought that my second marriage was against the Bible, because my first Husband was still alive,my first had been adulterous first. So the next day i did a pretty intensive study, and i found alot to back it up. Since then i have looked again and gone back to my first belief! it may have just been the Enemy,but its quite strange!
Friday, 5 October 2012
Praises
Today i am grateful for the fact that the Lord inhabits the Praises of His people,in this hard cold unloving world its easy to feel isolated, alone, which is of course what the Enemy of our souls wants us to feel,The Lord never leaves us alone,when we get up He is there, when we go to bed He is there,i was listening to a song yesterday, the words were, ' how can we hide from God who sees all?' to us as sinners its a bit scary that He sees all, but its comforting too!
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